Hello everybody.
This is my first post and I've want to know if some of you share my thoughts.
I would consider myself lonely. I don't have any close friends I can talk to. I often find myself alone during breaks at school and instead of hanging out in the lunch area, I just sit with my MacBook in a corner doing all kind of stuff to kill time until next lesson. I am starting to think that maybe I'm just meant to be lonely and there's nothing I can do about it. Don't get me wrong. I do want friends, but it just seems so **** hard!
Some of you may be wondering why I'm lonely in the first place. I suffer from social anxiety and I'm currently being treated with oral medication and seeing a psychiatrist regurlaly about my problem. but she only treats the problem, not the consequences of the problem (being lonely, having no friends, no social skills etc etc.)
I don't hate myself or have low self esteem, but when I think about it, my self esteems gis hurt when I think of my lack of friends and/or social skills. I don't consider myself as ugly - about average (whatever that is...). Im a silent person and not very good a conversing with people. After saying "hi" I litteraly froze and tried to find something to talk about. Later I just stopped and avoided any kind of conversation to stop this feeling. I do want to walk with them, but being silent doesn't really help me. I'm Frosty the Snowman when girls talk to me. I often just sit at home on weekends because I don't have anything to do. I don't feel like going to parties or stuff like that, but I want to meet people and make friends. Just last week I was invited to a birthday party, but never showed up. Even in situations where you have something to say, you choose to remain quiet.
Why is it that that I'm lonely, yet I find myself avoiding people on most occasions, even if I want to make friends? I've tried the "cool loner"-attitude but it doesn't solve my problem. Being a lonely from the moment you open your eyes to the moment you close them is just not human nature. Humans are social beings even though I've tried to deny this fact.
I don't have destructive thoughts about myself, I just feel lonely and that's why I'm adressing the issue.
This is my first post and I've want to know if some of you share my thoughts.
I would consider myself lonely. I don't have any close friends I can talk to. I often find myself alone during breaks at school and instead of hanging out in the lunch area, I just sit with my MacBook in a corner doing all kind of stuff to kill time until next lesson. I am starting to think that maybe I'm just meant to be lonely and there's nothing I can do about it. Don't get me wrong. I do want friends, but it just seems so **** hard!
Some of you may be wondering why I'm lonely in the first place. I suffer from social anxiety and I'm currently being treated with oral medication and seeing a psychiatrist regurlaly about my problem. but she only treats the problem, not the consequences of the problem (being lonely, having no friends, no social skills etc etc.)
I don't hate myself or have low self esteem, but when I think about it, my self esteems gis hurt when I think of my lack of friends and/or social skills. I don't consider myself as ugly - about average (whatever that is...). Im a silent person and not very good a conversing with people. After saying "hi" I litteraly froze and tried to find something to talk about. Later I just stopped and avoided any kind of conversation to stop this feeling. I do want to walk with them, but being silent doesn't really help me. I'm Frosty the Snowman when girls talk to me. I often just sit at home on weekends because I don't have anything to do. I don't feel like going to parties or stuff like that, but I want to meet people and make friends. Just last week I was invited to a birthday party, but never showed up. Even in situations where you have something to say, you choose to remain quiet.
Why is it that that I'm lonely, yet I find myself avoiding people on most occasions, even if I want to make friends? I've tried the "cool loner"-attitude but it doesn't solve my problem. Being a lonely from the moment you open your eyes to the moment you close them is just not human nature. Humans are social beings even though I've tried to deny this fact.
I don't have destructive thoughts about myself, I just feel lonely and that's why I'm adressing the issue.