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Wave Shock
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18 years...it's only been a short time, and already I feel like I am losing myself...Losing my grip on who I am, or who i was. I don't know...I just feel like I am becoming a whole different person...I keep fighting, I try to keep looking forward, I try to keep myself from feeling down...
I'm just not sure if I can keep holding onto this. I feel like I'm going to break. What's a life if I don't do anything but play video games and listen to music? I mean, can I say I have a lonely life if I really don't even have a life. In terms of reference, I would say so. The thing is, I'm here, so...I keep fighting. Jeez, it's like a mental war in my head...
Where is the old me? The one who was able to have fun, meet with friends, and not have a care in the world. I'm even starting to lose interest in video games (my safe haven). I come down to this statement, "Life is but a dream, it's up to you to make it a reality." Hmph...I feel like I already hit reality, and, wow, I don't think I wanted to hit reality yet.
I don't know...I just want to know who I really am and why because, right now, I don't think it's me.
I'm just not sure if I can keep holding onto this. I feel like I'm going to break. What's a life if I don't do anything but play video games and listen to music? I mean, can I say I have a lonely life if I really don't even have a life. In terms of reference, I would say so. The thing is, I'm here, so...I keep fighting. Jeez, it's like a mental war in my head...
Where is the old me? The one who was able to have fun, meet with friends, and not have a care in the world. I'm even starting to lose interest in video games (my safe haven). I come down to this statement, "Life is but a dream, it's up to you to make it a reality." Hmph...I feel like I already hit reality, and, wow, I don't think I wanted to hit reality yet.
I don't know...I just want to know who I really am and why because, right now, I don't think it's me.