Alonewith2cats
Well-known member
Do you ever find yourself feeling moody? I have days when I'm in a pretty good mood and other days when I crash right back into depression again.
The night before last night I had a nice phone conversation with my friend so I felt pretty good. Last night after I got home from work I was cooking dinner for myself and I got that gloomy, depressed feeling I often get in my empty apartment with just my 2 cats as the only other living souls besides me. So I decided I needed humor. I took out my collection of Threes Company episodes that I have on DVD. I put a disc in my blue-ray player and there was a problem. The blue-ray player shut itself off and the words "see you" were on the front and flashing. I was unable to turn the DVD player back on or even open it and get the disc out. There was nothing good on TV for me to watch. I threw a fit, starting punching my blue-ray player, cursing and crying uncontrollably and thinking to myself "What is this bull honeysuckle? I'm not allowed to be happy?" I changed the batteries in my remote control, still no success and from this point on for the rest of the night I could not stop crying. I did not pick up the phone and call anyone because I never call people when I'm in such a depressed state. I'm considerate enough not to dump my sadness on others. I was too depressed to study German, I haven't been motivated lately because I have to be in a good mood to do that.
This morning I called in sick to work because I haven't been getting enough sleep the last few nights and I'm down and it's cold and I just wasn't motivated to get up, take a shower, get dressed and go to work. I know this is not good. This is an occurrence and more than one occurrence in a 60 day period results in a verbal warning. So I have to be good for at least 60 days after today. I hope I don't get the flu since this depression can't be good for my immunity. I think I better call one of those counselors provided to me by the Employee Assistance Program.
Sorry this is long.
The night before last night I had a nice phone conversation with my friend so I felt pretty good. Last night after I got home from work I was cooking dinner for myself and I got that gloomy, depressed feeling I often get in my empty apartment with just my 2 cats as the only other living souls besides me. So I decided I needed humor. I took out my collection of Threes Company episodes that I have on DVD. I put a disc in my blue-ray player and there was a problem. The blue-ray player shut itself off and the words "see you" were on the front and flashing. I was unable to turn the DVD player back on or even open it and get the disc out. There was nothing good on TV for me to watch. I threw a fit, starting punching my blue-ray player, cursing and crying uncontrollably and thinking to myself "What is this bull honeysuckle? I'm not allowed to be happy?" I changed the batteries in my remote control, still no success and from this point on for the rest of the night I could not stop crying. I did not pick up the phone and call anyone because I never call people when I'm in such a depressed state. I'm considerate enough not to dump my sadness on others. I was too depressed to study German, I haven't been motivated lately because I have to be in a good mood to do that.
This morning I called in sick to work because I haven't been getting enough sleep the last few nights and I'm down and it's cold and I just wasn't motivated to get up, take a shower, get dressed and go to work. I know this is not good. This is an occurrence and more than one occurrence in a 60 day period results in a verbal warning. So I have to be good for at least 60 days after today. I hope I don't get the flu since this depression can't be good for my immunity. I think I better call one of those counselors provided to me by the Employee Assistance Program.
Sorry this is long.