Hi. I don’t seek help here, just want to talk to someone, since I can’t do it in reality. I’m 27 years old. As far as I remember, I’ve always been extremely shy, beginning with early childhood. I always had very difficult social relationships in any community, no matter what it was (school, college, job etc). At school I was abused and I think that caused my psychic and nervous system to shatter. At that time first symptoms of panic attacks and social anxiety appeared and they worsened with time. So instead of the real world I’ve chosen virtual worlds like videogaming, movies, internet…
Now I’m suffering from social anxiety and severe depression. I have no friends and never had a girlfriend, even so I have nothing wrong with my appearance. I’m still living with my mom, while my former friends and classmates have their own families. Even my virtual worlds don’t give me a pleasure anymore. I feel down because I know that it’s a dead-end situation and I realize that it will not change, at least not in the near future. I’m starting to come to the idea that I don’t belong to this society and the world.
Sorry for grammar mistakes (if any) as English isn't my home language.
Now I’m suffering from social anxiety and severe depression. I have no friends and never had a girlfriend, even so I have nothing wrong with my appearance. I’m still living with my mom, while my former friends and classmates have their own families. Even my virtual worlds don’t give me a pleasure anymore. I feel down because I know that it’s a dead-end situation and I realize that it will not change, at least not in the near future. I’m starting to come to the idea that I don’t belong to this society and the world.
Sorry for grammar mistakes (if any) as English isn't my home language.