x moonlit rage x
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somedays, i can spend up to 10 hours on my webcam. letting strange men internationally degrade me. its the only connection to the outside world that i have. its like an addiction sometimes. i chat with these people and i feel like im not the only loser masturbating on webcam. my therapist thinks its because im not over my ex yet? maybe im not, so what? i dont like to be touched, i dont like to go to bars, i hate nightclubs... i dont want a one night stand only to wake up with crabs. i jus want some human interaction. but everytime i chat with these ppl, it always leads to nudity and a cold shower. lately ive even noticed how desensitized ive become. i dont even flinch when someone tells me im pretty. i dont believe them. its just another ploy to get me to flash my tits on cam. so lame. when will i be healed from this? when will i be able to go out and find someone? when will i trust again? when will i feel like a part of society..... not just the girl on webcam. i yearn for a deep connection. but seems like boston is quiet tonite