hawk9007
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ok so about 6 days ago school ended and over these last few days quite a bit has happend i was blown off my my freind twice lost my job and had the police sent after me (long story,short i ran away) so today i was chillin ay my school,whare i go to think, and my freind blew me off AGAIN then i hit a new time low. i was angry at everything, my freinds,famil,co-workers,life,everythings and before i knoew it i was at the local drug story buying,and dont jump to conclusions,razorz,the cutting kind.i didnt realize what i had bought untill later that day when my freind called and it sortof snapped me out of it. i went over to her house later that day and she pryed the first one from my hands and the other i disasembled and threw away.as you can see i almost hit a new time low.one of my greatest frears is a hospital, not the medical kind, i mean the one whare they strap ou down if you having thoughts. the freind i was talking to i concider to be my angel and i know its bad when she says it might be for the best to go to the hospital for a while.i know shes worried about me, today i saw a side of her that i thought didnt exsist,incase she reads this im not gonna say,and for that reason i decided to go,i think. its still kindof hanging in the air a little bit. i would like a second opinion on all this. im willing to go not only for me but for my angel,she wants to see me happy and all i want is whats best for her. but still my fears are making this a hard choice,it just goes to show how terrified i am of these places and i dont know why. plus im not sure how to tell my mom about all this, after all going up to her and just saying "mom can you bring me to the hospital,i almost killed myself," might not be the best thing right now, hard times. im not so sure what to do though, now you see my delema. just goes to show how powerful love and fear is. lets see which is stonger shall we?