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James H
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Hi everyone, I'm new the world of internet message boards to be honest, but thought id give it a try in the hope of some comfort and maybe even advice.
Since as long as i can remember I've always been an anxious and depressed person, even as a very young child i remember feeling like this.
I've always managed to struggle through, I've been through alcohol and drug problems, nothing too severe in those circumstances, I've got a very addictive personality and I'm constantly holding myself back from absolute indulgence.
I've never been able to form relationships with people, certainly not with the opposite sex, I'm 25 and have never had a girlfriend. I have had friends in my life though, but not really at the moment. I do have family, my mum and my sister, my sister is just as insecure and unbalanced as me but deals with it differently, with boob jobs and lavish living. We've just recently started to get along though, whereas before we never could.
2008 has been my toughest year so far with my dad dying 2 months ago, ive really been suffering with depression since then, im in such a low mood and can barely motivate myself at work or to get any sort of social life. I wasn't particularly close to my dad and i swing from missing him to resenting him because of his alcoholism and the way he was. it doesnt feel like the depression is related but i think it must be because of when it all started this time.
That's my situation really, I don't have a particular question or point to make, more a general lot of things to get the ball rolling i suppose. It would be great to hear of anyone who has similar feelings/lives.
James
Since as long as i can remember I've always been an anxious and depressed person, even as a very young child i remember feeling like this.
I've always managed to struggle through, I've been through alcohol and drug problems, nothing too severe in those circumstances, I've got a very addictive personality and I'm constantly holding myself back from absolute indulgence.
I've never been able to form relationships with people, certainly not with the opposite sex, I'm 25 and have never had a girlfriend. I have had friends in my life though, but not really at the moment. I do have family, my mum and my sister, my sister is just as insecure and unbalanced as me but deals with it differently, with boob jobs and lavish living. We've just recently started to get along though, whereas before we never could.
2008 has been my toughest year so far with my dad dying 2 months ago, ive really been suffering with depression since then, im in such a low mood and can barely motivate myself at work or to get any sort of social life. I wasn't particularly close to my dad and i swing from missing him to resenting him because of his alcoholism and the way he was. it doesnt feel like the depression is related but i think it must be because of when it all started this time.
That's my situation really, I don't have a particular question or point to make, more a general lot of things to get the ball rolling i suppose. It would be great to hear of anyone who has similar feelings/lives.
James
