dn560 said:
i was not interested in it im just doing it because i heard about it and was told it pays alot.
dn560 said:
im doing it because this field of work has alot of money involved.
From my experience, I think you're completely pursuing the wrong things.
Money is important due to how this society works, but it's not ever going to make you happy, nor will it ever make you happy with a terrible job.
Many people seem to make that horrible mistake and regret it much later after they are in that job and hate going to work every day, just to make money that they often can't spend because they're too busy hating their job or even their entire life, or they spend it recklessly to fill the holes in their life, such as spending much of it on alcohol or some other vice.
dn560 said:
my real interests are in biochem and chem.
Why are you not pursuing this then? It completely puzzles me.
Most people your age have absolutely no clue what they even want to do or what their interests are. They go through course after course, switching from one to another, or often pick the 'good money' options, only because they just don't have any idea what is 'right' for them.
You have that and yet you're throwing it away for 'money'?
First, I'm rather very sure there are plenty of very well-paying jobs in chemistry.
Second, doing what you like to do is so much more important than getting a lot of money. You'll not only feel it is easier, but going to that job everyday probably won't make you hate yourself, because you're doing what you like. And the more interested you are the more likely that it comes easier to you, which means it is more likely you'll get a better paying job.
Third, being in a field you're interested in, with other people interested, gives you a better sense of yourself and can also help you to make some friends. Sharing the same interests gives you a commonality that makes it easier to associate with those people.
My suggestion: I'm not sure what you were studying in university before you left, but I suggest you go back and get into a chem program or find an alternative way to pursue the chem-field. There is no point in pursuing this field that you have no interests in pursuing just to make money. If anything that will just lead you to being more miserable than you already are, even if you make it through this rough patch now.