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interesting how im reading so many people found this website by going on google and typing "i am lonely." I guess we're all something huh? to find ourselves here, kinda sad but at least its comforting to know others feel like this and im not alone.
A little about me, im a 23 year old guy living in WA state. Like most of you guys i feel alone. It was never like this, there was a time when i had a girlfriend, was in college and making many new friends who i grew very close to. Long story short my girlfriend cheated on me, and her being my first love and all (5 years together) kinda emotionally screwed me up. Well im lying, it did screw me up. I went on a slow depression, didnt get it treated because i thought i was man enough to deal with it. Ended up shutting the world, my friends, and family out for about 2 years (all while playing a online game called world of warcraft).
So then it came to time for me quit the game and im finding myself alone, no friends (or at least they think im busy), and not sure what to do with my life exactly. I look at myself and noticed not too long ago that im a complete and utter loser, the type of person my past self 2 years ago would spit on.
My social skills are complete crap, and i know im akward when it comes to making small talk now. Its depressing to know i can speak my mind more easily online then in real life.
Im overweight but i cant blame playing that game for it, im trying to change my eating habits and lifestyle so i can go back to my pre depression years but its sad to know im chasing my past.
Im alone. since that breakup i dont feel im ever up to meeting new girls to get into a close relationship like that ever again. But the problem is i want it. my ex was a pillar i leaned on, and since shes not there anymore i have felt more alone then ever, the kind of alone that i cant describe in words. Since i quit that warcraft game which was a distraction for me, i have felt more and more alone everyday. My old friends are still there, i dont talk to them much but i will. I yern for just 1 very close and personal relationship but i cant seem to find it.
I guess im asking others out there if they know this feeling and what they ended up doing if they has somewhat simular experiences. Im in some real need of advice right now so any help would be grateful.
-sorry if this post is a little abstract, im a little tired atm, hard to decribe feelings clearly when the feelings are not even clear to me
A little about me, im a 23 year old guy living in WA state. Like most of you guys i feel alone. It was never like this, there was a time when i had a girlfriend, was in college and making many new friends who i grew very close to. Long story short my girlfriend cheated on me, and her being my first love and all (5 years together) kinda emotionally screwed me up. Well im lying, it did screw me up. I went on a slow depression, didnt get it treated because i thought i was man enough to deal with it. Ended up shutting the world, my friends, and family out for about 2 years (all while playing a online game called world of warcraft).
So then it came to time for me quit the game and im finding myself alone, no friends (or at least they think im busy), and not sure what to do with my life exactly. I look at myself and noticed not too long ago that im a complete and utter loser, the type of person my past self 2 years ago would spit on.
My social skills are complete crap, and i know im akward when it comes to making small talk now. Its depressing to know i can speak my mind more easily online then in real life.
Im overweight but i cant blame playing that game for it, im trying to change my eating habits and lifestyle so i can go back to my pre depression years but its sad to know im chasing my past.
Im alone. since that breakup i dont feel im ever up to meeting new girls to get into a close relationship like that ever again. But the problem is i want it. my ex was a pillar i leaned on, and since shes not there anymore i have felt more alone then ever, the kind of alone that i cant describe in words. Since i quit that warcraft game which was a distraction for me, i have felt more and more alone everyday. My old friends are still there, i dont talk to them much but i will. I yern for just 1 very close and personal relationship but i cant seem to find it.
I guess im asking others out there if they know this feeling and what they ended up doing if they has somewhat simular experiences. Im in some real need of advice right now so any help would be grateful.
-sorry if this post is a little abstract, im a little tired atm, hard to decribe feelings clearly when the feelings are not even clear to me