Thirteen
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Hey all,
I just wanted to ask if you guys have any passions; something you love to do when you want to have time for yourself and relax; something that makes you feel alive and what you do with your heart, out of pure interest and willingness to do; something at what you express yourself; something that makes your life bearable. For some, it's cooking; for others, computer stuff like coding C++. Others excel in the craft of musician, while some are extremely gifted when it comes to sports.
I'm just asking because I myself have no passion for anything (I have thought about this many a sleepless night). I used to be good at everything I do; but never an expert in anything. I don't know what interests me. I study engineering but I couldn't care less for technology. History, psychology, economics and other things do not interest me either. I used to care for cinemography, now that is boring too, along with other arts. I feel interest for writing but I am verbally average at most, in all the five languages I know, even though I have tried to write - I just never can express myself. I used to play basketball in a sports high school, but after that I stopped playing since it wasn't too interesting either. Nowadays I just drink and try not to drop out of school. I like to drink but I don't know anything about making cocktails or designing a super night club, even though I've worked in a restaurant as a barman.
What I really loved was designing story-based scenarios in a game called Age of Empires 2, but then I realised there were so many better designers that I lost interest again. It's hard to be a perfectionist with no real skills.
If you sometimes were like me, what changed you? Please share experiences; I seem to be the only person I know who doesn't have a "special" hobby, and it really eats me up inside - I feel like I want to burst myself out but I don't know how to vent it.
I just wanted to ask if you guys have any passions; something you love to do when you want to have time for yourself and relax; something that makes you feel alive and what you do with your heart, out of pure interest and willingness to do; something at what you express yourself; something that makes your life bearable. For some, it's cooking; for others, computer stuff like coding C++. Others excel in the craft of musician, while some are extremely gifted when it comes to sports.
I'm just asking because I myself have no passion for anything (I have thought about this many a sleepless night). I used to be good at everything I do; but never an expert in anything. I don't know what interests me. I study engineering but I couldn't care less for technology. History, psychology, economics and other things do not interest me either. I used to care for cinemography, now that is boring too, along with other arts. I feel interest for writing but I am verbally average at most, in all the five languages I know, even though I have tried to write - I just never can express myself. I used to play basketball in a sports high school, but after that I stopped playing since it wasn't too interesting either. Nowadays I just drink and try not to drop out of school. I like to drink but I don't know anything about making cocktails or designing a super night club, even though I've worked in a restaurant as a barman.
What I really loved was designing story-based scenarios in a game called Age of Empires 2, but then I realised there were so many better designers that I lost interest again. It's hard to be a perfectionist with no real skills.
If you sometimes were like me, what changed you? Please share experiences; I seem to be the only person I know who doesn't have a "special" hobby, and it really eats me up inside - I feel like I want to burst myself out but I don't know how to vent it.