Magpieorpigeon
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I got up late this afternoon, cause I'm depressed and don't start an intern-ship until next week. I try to avoid my flatmates because I always end up disappointing people or offending them or doing anything that makes them dislike me a lot. so I try to keep to myself. unfortunately, both my female flatmates, I am female too, are very chatty and clicked immediately when she moved in after me. I try to keep to myself a as I said, so when I eat my bread I'm mostly staying quiet. I thought everything was ok because I did chat a small bit. however, she then said, as she cooked some food, "i have a song stuck in my head, you the one that goes, 'why'd you have to be rude?'", except the last word is actually "cruel" in the song. I take this as an obvious passive aggressive move. I tried to hide my anger as I washed the dishes, but I ended up being passive aggressive too. I think she noticed because she gave a faint laugh or sneer. I just moved out of home in my late 20's and I'm trying to regain my independence and peace of mind. why do I end up with someone whose standard of politeness is obviously above my own? I don't know how to handle these situations. I take anti-depressants otherwise this would have me curled up in a ball. I feel hopeless without some support.
My sister called me earlier, but I had slept all afternoon, and I nothing to say to her. I'm very passive aggressive this way, because if I said exactly what I feel I think so much anger would spill from my mouth and I don't to project stuff onto people. I need to see a counsellor soon. I cannot handle everyday life. I have an evening art class to go to tonight also and I really don't want to go but I've already paid in full. I hate my life because everyday I struggle to not explode into a rage and instead lay in bed depressed and broken.
I just read about passive aggression and I relate to it a lot. I see myself as a victim. fresia. I hate life............ I know I've answered my own question... but I still feel hopeless and depressed.
My sister called me earlier, but I had slept all afternoon, and I nothing to say to her. I'm very passive aggressive this way, because if I said exactly what I feel I think so much anger would spill from my mouth and I don't to project stuff onto people. I need to see a counsellor soon. I cannot handle everyday life. I have an evening art class to go to tonight also and I really don't want to go but I've already paid in full. I hate my life because everyday I struggle to not explode into a rage and instead lay in bed depressed and broken.
I just read about passive aggression and I relate to it a lot. I see myself as a victim. fresia. I hate life............ I know I've answered my own question... but I still feel hopeless and depressed.