delledonne11 said:
You are kind of missing what I am saying.
delledonne11 said:
But, i find it curious that on this board, if you say to "live your best life", that that is considered "selfish". Interesting.
Well, you kind of missed what I was saying, too.
It's fine if that's the way you want to live. Doing whatever you can to be happy, but at the same time trying to help everyone around you. I think that's probably a good way to live, too. I'm not saying you're selfish for doing that. You didn't really make that clear it is what you meant.
In any case, none of that helps me. I can't even close my eyes anymore without seeing someone who needs help. It's not something I can stop thinking about because it's not something that I want to stop thinking about.
How could I? People are hurting. People are dying. They are all around me.
I can't simply pretend that isn't happening. I cannot forget something like that.
And it's all because of them. It is all because of these governments and these politicians. These people who only pretend to care about others. These are people who do not allow people like me in to change things. These are people who do not even allow people like me to be represented. These are people who willingly send people to their deaths.
And I am simply supposed to ignore that? I am simply supposed to pretend it isn't happening?
No matter how long I do what you suggest I do it never makes me happy. In fact living this lie and telling myself it is fine is exactly why I am here. It isn't fine!
This is exactly why I am so miserable. This is exactly why I want to be miserable. I can allow myself to be happy for a moment, but I cannot allow myself to be truly happy until this problem is resolved. Until everyone is free.
You suggest we cannot change things, but I do not think that is actually true. One day things are going to change. They have to. This is the day I have been preparing for. The day I must prepare for. I cannot do anything else. I cannot think about anything else. I believe we should all be preparing for that day. It is going to come whether we are ready for it or not.
Sorry... I let this topic get to me. I think I need a break for a while.