New to the forum, but I'm sure my story is not atypical of what others usually post.
All I can say is it's complicated. Let's roll the reel back...
I met a guy 5 years ago, he was head over heels for me. I was not interested nor did I remember who he was the next day he emailed(via shared business card). Two years go by, we meet again in person...though all that time he text me to wish happy holidays. I knew he was always into me. When we meet again two years later, I'm helping him on favor for his wedding. We emotionally connected before his wedding, but knew it would never happen. 1.5 month after his wedding, we connected at a emotional and deep level. He is 41 years old at that time, I was 28. He is now 43 and I am 30. I am a hugely successful, extremely attractive, highly social-able person. He is an amazingly smart, highly successful, popular and decent looking man. But I assure you, I would be the most beautiful woman he's ever dated. We became madly in love, in a deep, true way. At every level. He's committed to me and knew I would be the one for him forever, everything he's ever looked for in a life partner was me. I wasn't sure he was everything I'd look for in a life-partner, but because he was so amazingly in love with me, being the CEO he was, he was head over heel with admiration over me, treated my like relationship any can ever experience. I was flattered. He knew what he had to do to be with me, eventually he divorced his 7 month old wife (room mate more than lover of 7.5 yrs and thought was right thing to do, that he owe her to marry her type of relationship). We were together finally after 9 months of drama. He's been going through a nasty divorce battle for almost 3 years now. We are still together. He went from having absolutely nothing, because of the nasty ongoing divorce and now have set up another business all on his own, and hugely successful, although the divorce is still going through courts. He's worked night and day to supposedly make a life for "us". With that, he's completely neglected me, nor have have time to care for me, ask about my day, nor share his day with me. He is so occupied his his own world of work, not one moment can she spared to the person he supposedly "love more than life itself". This is how our typical day usually works: he wake, surf net, work, come home surf or work, dinner while surfing net or Blackberry IM, shower, work more or surf net. He's lost all sex drive, it's been over 6 months since I really felt immense pleasure from being intimate. It's all owed to work supposedly. This is how our typical day worked before: wake, kiss deeply, make love, cuddle, work, come home, hug deeply, make love, dinner with wine on balcony, bath together, watch tv, go to bed, make love, and fall asleep arm in arm. For over 1.5 years it was like this. I;ve been so dependent on him, and now he's so focus on work and success, I feel that's he taken me for granted. 5 calls and 40 text per day has become no call and 2 text per day.
I don't' want to be where I am not desired. I feel so lonely for someone who supposedly have everything. He's bought me everything I've ever wanted, expensive car, jewelry, vacation, designer everything you can think of (although I make a very decent living on own) but I would give all that up, all I want is him, the way he use to love me. Is it the end? Are we doomed in the love cycle? Or will it be better when he's less busy with starting a business?
The last straw was a blind date about 6 months ago. I had been talking online with a lovely woman for a few weeks. A mutual friend had given us each others email, so it's almost like it wasn't entirely a blind date. Regardless, I picked a time and a place I thought she might enjoy and the date was set.
