For anyone that doesnt know I suffer from BP, OCD & anxiety but try not to let this rule my life, however hard this is.
Except I find myself alone because of this and often I think its because most of the time I can stand my ground, I can look after myself and am willing to help others fight the madness in there head, thats just me. But my past experience has been that because I a stong person with my lillness that others seems to forget that I too do suffer.
This brings me to where I am now................................I have trust issues and I dont quite know how to break out of this and rebuild, even though I see therapists to help, this really has now helped. Its not only this the above, its with all relationships...............I feel like I have been let down, used and abused, lied to, you name its happen which leaves me in a shell where I am trying by being here to learn to trust again.
Its hard, but I know that closing myself off from the world is killing me inside, even though writing this is making me sick to because I dont know how to trust again..........................all that is very deep rooted. Its not that it stops me from doing things, other then avoiding people, because if people were to see me they would think I have it all, but I dont, its just a great mask that I wear so I dont get hurt again...............but its empty and lonely and I want to change this.
Does anyone have any ideas on how to rebuild trust?
Except I find myself alone because of this and often I think its because most of the time I can stand my ground, I can look after myself and am willing to help others fight the madness in there head, thats just me. But my past experience has been that because I a stong person with my lillness that others seems to forget that I too do suffer.
This brings me to where I am now................................I have trust issues and I dont quite know how to break out of this and rebuild, even though I see therapists to help, this really has now helped. Its not only this the above, its with all relationships...............I feel like I have been let down, used and abused, lied to, you name its happen which leaves me in a shell where I am trying by being here to learn to trust again.
Its hard, but I know that closing myself off from the world is killing me inside, even though writing this is making me sick to because I dont know how to trust again..........................all that is very deep rooted. Its not that it stops me from doing things, other then avoiding people, because if people were to see me they would think I have it all, but I dont, its just a great mask that I wear so I dont get hurt again...............but its empty and lonely and I want to change this.
Does anyone have any ideas on how to rebuild trust?