D
dukey
Guest
I am feeling such a sense of no self worth right now. My final email from from friend went as such "I was so niave to believe that we were just friends, I should have realized that you were obsessed with me. I am disappointed. Do not contact me anymore" I then researched obsessed on the net and it was true. Everything I read fit perfectly I feel like such honeysuckle. Why didn't I just keep quiet about the phone records and continue to at least have a friend? I feel like such a physco freak right now!! The whole summer we spent together enjoying each others company, going to the beach, going out for drinks, watching movies.. ect.. I enjoyed it so much but was it that I just wanted to be with her intimately? I sure was jeleous of all the attention and all the social things she was a part of. Now that it is completely over with no contact at all I feel worse. Why could I not go on trying to be that supportive friend. She held me in high regard for that and I let her down being obsessive. Such a character flaw on my part. The thing is I don't have much in my life and I am dwelling on this loss. I feelm myself sliding deeper into depression ( which has destroyed me in the past) Everyday chores seem so mundane and fruitless. being alone with no one to care about me weighs on me. I know she was partly to blame. She had told me that she likes to get guys to like her and then push them away. (a big game) she never pushed me away maybe because I was always spending money on her or maybe it was that she truly did enjoy our friendship?? I'll never know because I don't think she'll speak with me again and I haven't tried to contact her. What do you guys think about all this? your input has been very enlightening before and I GREATLY APPRECIATE IT!!