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SophiaGrace
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This is going to be a complicated...well...issue.
And I"m not quite sure how to begin to explain it.
1.) Boyfriend # 1 => Verbally Abusive
2.) Boyfriend # 2 => manipulative
3.) Boyfriend # 3=> Made fun of my disability/self esteem issues
4.) Boyfriend # 4 => Had Mental Problems up the wazoo and is still obsessed with me after 2 years apart. Also made fun of my disability.
4.) Boyfriend #5 => Was actually nice and we are still friends.
. He broke up with me.
5.) Boyfriend # 6=> Drug Dealer/User ( I feel sad for him because I feel he's actually a nice person deep down)
6.) Boyfriend #7 => Manipulative
... I could go on
But I dont want to.
Can you see a pattern? I can.
Why do I have this pattern? I think it has something to do with low self esteem and taking people's crap. Also, it could be perhaps that I just..dont think I deserve better.
I also dont trust guys very much. I can handle friendships with them, but...relationships? *shakes head no*
I'm probably going to get some " Girls Dont Like Nice Guys" responses. of which I am not looking foward to.
That answer is far too simplistic if it is even true at all! (which I dont believe it is..)
The point of this post is...
How Can I Break the Cycle? It is obvious to me that i'm just repeating it from the relationship my parents had (which was abusive in all senses of the word).
I've tried to answer this question throughout the years. How Do I Break the Cycle? How do I...get into a healthy relationship?
I know that i probably have to work on myself before...I can find a nice person to be with. One with whom I can have a healthy relationship.
What does a healthy relationship feel like?
And I"m not quite sure how to begin to explain it.
1.) Boyfriend # 1 => Verbally Abusive
2.) Boyfriend # 2 => manipulative
3.) Boyfriend # 3=> Made fun of my disability/self esteem issues
4.) Boyfriend # 4 => Had Mental Problems up the wazoo and is still obsessed with me after 2 years apart. Also made fun of my disability.
4.) Boyfriend #5 => Was actually nice and we are still friends.
5.) Boyfriend # 6=> Drug Dealer/User ( I feel sad for him because I feel he's actually a nice person deep down)
6.) Boyfriend #7 => Manipulative
... I could go on
But I dont want to.
Can you see a pattern? I can.
Why do I have this pattern? I think it has something to do with low self esteem and taking people's crap. Also, it could be perhaps that I just..dont think I deserve better.
I also dont trust guys very much. I can handle friendships with them, but...relationships? *shakes head no*
I'm probably going to get some " Girls Dont Like Nice Guys" responses. of which I am not looking foward to.
That answer is far too simplistic if it is even true at all! (which I dont believe it is..)
The point of this post is...
How Can I Break the Cycle? It is obvious to me that i'm just repeating it from the relationship my parents had (which was abusive in all senses of the word).
I've tried to answer this question throughout the years. How Do I Break the Cycle? How do I...get into a healthy relationship?
I know that i probably have to work on myself before...I can find a nice person to be with. One with whom I can have a healthy relationship.
What does a healthy relationship feel like?