Pezza
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So here I am at the beginning of my road. I never really wanted to do this but the way my life is going, I'm gonna be dead by the end of the year so I've got to. I don't know where my road leads, I guess that's the beauty of it, but wherever it leads it's gotta be better than where I am now. For the moment I'm going to focus on giving up some bad habits, but when I'm well on my way I'll try and tackle my social anxiety and some other things.
I'm quitting alcohol. I've been drinking since I was 13. I don't have an addiction but this is still gonna be hard for me, but it's necessary because I've been told that at times I easily consume enough to kill. No person should be consuming vodka by the pint. I used to use alcohol to combat my anxiety, it will be interesting to see how I cope without it.
I'm quitting smoking. I've never smoked normal cigarettes, I never saw the appeal of a nicotine addiction, but I do enjoy cigars and I own a shisha called Dora which I enjoy smoking. I do smoke weed occasionally but I'm no pot head so giving up smoking shouldn't be too hard.
The hardest thing for me to give up is going to be my lifestyle, I'm always looking for something adventurous to do, normally it's dangerous or illegal or both, for example in December I crashed 2 cars in 3 weeks, I dont even have a car let alone a license, I should have died during the second crash; 90mph, no seatbelt and a faulty airbag. I do a lot of stupid things. I also hang out with "bad people" most of which are a lot older than me. It is going to be hard for me to stop, the adrenaline and danger have been what I live for. But I will stop I have no desire to be behind bars or 6 feet under by the age of 20.
This thread is going to be somewhat of a progress diary for me.
If you have anything you want to say feel free to post.
Step 1 Complete
I'm quitting alcohol. I've been drinking since I was 13. I don't have an addiction but this is still gonna be hard for me, but it's necessary because I've been told that at times I easily consume enough to kill. No person should be consuming vodka by the pint. I used to use alcohol to combat my anxiety, it will be interesting to see how I cope without it.
I'm quitting smoking. I've never smoked normal cigarettes, I never saw the appeal of a nicotine addiction, but I do enjoy cigars and I own a shisha called Dora which I enjoy smoking. I do smoke weed occasionally but I'm no pot head so giving up smoking shouldn't be too hard.
The hardest thing for me to give up is going to be my lifestyle, I'm always looking for something adventurous to do, normally it's dangerous or illegal or both, for example in December I crashed 2 cars in 3 weeks, I dont even have a car let alone a license, I should have died during the second crash; 90mph, no seatbelt and a faulty airbag. I do a lot of stupid things. I also hang out with "bad people" most of which are a lot older than me. It is going to be hard for me to stop, the adrenaline and danger have been what I live for. But I will stop I have no desire to be behind bars or 6 feet under by the age of 20.
This thread is going to be somewhat of a progress diary for me.
If you have anything you want to say feel free to post.
Step 1 Complete