Hi im 17 years old.
I used to be really depressed and felt like everyone was against me because my friends were.. Me and my best friend (im a guy) we met 2-3 years ago we were like brothers, he was more my brother than my actual biological brother, we both started smoking weed and hanging out with worse and worse people.
Well he started to change slowly, and then he and this other guy started to call me names, it escalated slowly until i didnt hang out with him any more. We both had a mutual friend who's house we always visited and i started going there when he wasn't. Well it got worse because he apologized and a week later started doing it again but worse, saying he wanted to sleep with my deeply depressed sister, saying my mom was a slut.. all kinds of things. And our mutual friend who i thought was my friend didn't stick up for me sometimes even agreeing due to pear pressure, and thats why i stopped hanging out with my so called friends. I got really depressed but not just because of that..
I also around the same time started to lose all my friends in school because i never went there because i had horrible acne all over my face (search up the worse kind of acne on google images and mine was slightly better but still almost the same) and around that time also i quit school. Today a year later my skin is soo much better but i still have low self esteem, and low confidence.
But i am motivated like never before. I started online school and im finishing it really quickly. I dont have any friends anymore, i stay home everyday with nothing to do, but school work, tv, games which now im bored of, it pretty much sucks. All the time im looking for opportunities to meet new people like going to the gym (which doesn't work because my family is poor and im kinda intimidated) joining teams, which ive been looking for for the longest time but all of them cost money and my family is poor and we cant afford it.. i really want a way to interact with people again.. but i dont want to go back to normal school because it is really stressful..
Any suggestions? I really need help getting the replay button unstuck from my life.
I used to be really depressed and felt like everyone was against me because my friends were.. Me and my best friend (im a guy) we met 2-3 years ago we were like brothers, he was more my brother than my actual biological brother, we both started smoking weed and hanging out with worse and worse people.
Well he started to change slowly, and then he and this other guy started to call me names, it escalated slowly until i didnt hang out with him any more. We both had a mutual friend who's house we always visited and i started going there when he wasn't. Well it got worse because he apologized and a week later started doing it again but worse, saying he wanted to sleep with my deeply depressed sister, saying my mom was a slut.. all kinds of things. And our mutual friend who i thought was my friend didn't stick up for me sometimes even agreeing due to pear pressure, and thats why i stopped hanging out with my so called friends. I got really depressed but not just because of that..
I also around the same time started to lose all my friends in school because i never went there because i had horrible acne all over my face (search up the worse kind of acne on google images and mine was slightly better but still almost the same) and around that time also i quit school. Today a year later my skin is soo much better but i still have low self esteem, and low confidence.
But i am motivated like never before. I started online school and im finishing it really quickly. I dont have any friends anymore, i stay home everyday with nothing to do, but school work, tv, games which now im bored of, it pretty much sucks. All the time im looking for opportunities to meet new people like going to the gym (which doesn't work because my family is poor and im kinda intimidated) joining teams, which ive been looking for for the longest time but all of them cost money and my family is poor and we cant afford it.. i really want a way to interact with people again.. but i dont want to go back to normal school because it is really stressful..
Any suggestions? I really need help getting the replay button unstuck from my life.