Unhappy

[TheCapo]

Long rhyme i know, its like poetry but i wrote it to a hip hop song. Im really stressed so this actually helped. Please dont flame me or anything this is my life not alot agree with it but i grew up in a harsh enviroment. So this is my way of expressing myself. Thanks



Father forgive me, memories of my life startin to bother me
participated in drug deals, been a victim of armed robberies
initiated in the street war, got shot at in my first ride
lost freinds to homicides, it made me prone to hide
I guess im jus a thug individual
with the mentality of a criminal
i spent my life bein a part of crime in society
but all that time i jus wanted love to set me free
Now im 23 and im still strugglin' hard
to me, its like in life, i was dealt the wrong the card
At times, im asleep and i keep dreaming of the jackin'
love in my life is what im lackin'
It never gets better jus keeps getting worse
And the way im going , b4 marriage ill be in a hearse
Nightmares of being shot at, and on the beach lonely
jus wish the girl i once loved would phone me
maybe im destined to live my life alone in this planet?
The seeds of my future? never get to plant it
WHy cant i jus smile and feel happy?
its like the devils got me and he and god trapped me

Chorus x 2

SO why should i be happy?
So alone and no girls look at me
Jus a shadow roaming ,but who trapped me?
Never had a girlfreind so why should i be happy?

They say the best is yet to come
but thats not what we say where im from
the worst has yet to come so i dont get my hope up
I jus struggle to maintain, keep the dope up
People dont feel me cause my lifes a mess
And i feel i'll never get a chance to rest
smoke cig after cig and keep stressin'
I dont smile cuz my life i keep guessin'
this life? why cant i jus feel happy?
who was it that trapped me?
I wanted to die once but i let it go
My suicide is a diffrent version, only way for me to go
am i jus part of societies rejected part?
it hurts cuz i jus want love and it gets worse
conflicted with a disease which made me avoid social situations
psoriasis hurt, i dont see the public, the underworlds what im facing
SO am i gonna die alone? oh well
for the things ive doine am i goin to hell?
Jus take a look at me
why the fukk should i be happy?
tears droppin as i hustle in the city
anyone out ther even miss me?

Chorus x 2

SO why should i be happy?
So alone and no girls look at me
Jus a shadow roaming ,but who trapped me?
Never had a girlfreind so why should i be happy?

Its the end of time and im keepin sane
i know nothing in life but pain
There was a time where i coudlnt eat
i had to sell drugs alone in the street
Almost died one to many times
that why i keep on writing rhymes
id sit in my suv and jus write on a dark street
that was my life and still is, old shoes on my feet
id wake up nd couldnt even afford to feed myself
jus had to hustle, thats all that could help
work only covered the bills
being alone and broke kills
but i gotta keep my head up
dont matter if i get fed up
So take a look at me
any girl out there cant see
im like a ghost so i vanish alot
depression and the streets is all i got

Chorus x 2

SO why should i be happy?
So alone and no girls look at me
Jus a shadow roaming ,but who trapped me?
Never had a girlfreind so why should i be happy?