I'm sorry you're going through a rough patch.
We all have bad days. Hell. Some of us have bad weeks.
Even though I don't know much about whats going on with you aside from what we've talked about.
You seem like a nice person.
You're very talented in regards to what I've seen of your work.
Take deep breaths and remember that time heals all.
If you ever need to someone to talk too, there are plenty of people that care and want to help.
Just look at this thread dedicated to you!
This is a safe place filled with people who try to help one another.
That's what makes this site such a great place.
Take care and have a wonderful day!