Lonesome Crow
Well-known member
- Joined
- Aug 16, 2008
- Messages
- 6,780
- Reaction score
- 8
lonelyistheworld said:Lonesome Crow said:I was talking to my dad about my problems for a couple of hours.
It was a releave for me to be able to go to my father for advice after
all these years. I never really had a relationship with my father so
it was cool. Just to feel like i have my dad in my life again means alot
to me. I actaully never got any advice. For most of my life all
I ever wanted from this man was for him to love me as i am, his son.
Not what he wanted me to be...nothing and everything in my life I did wasn't good enough for him.
Mirracles do happen.
And to not be afraid he was going to kick my ass...is different.
The man is 6' , 200 lb...he'll kick my ass too
I loved my Dad very much. Saw him last year, when he called and asked me to pick him up because he had to get out of the house. He was in time for my daughter's 3rd birthday.
Four months later, I received a strange email from a friend who lived a couple towns over, saying she thought she saw an obit for my father, and passing on her condolences if it was him.
I replied that it may be him, since probably no one would tell me. She pasted it into an email. It was my father, who had passed away about 3 weeks before. I and my younger sister had been written out of his obit.
He was cremated, so I have no place to go to "visit" him. I've "made" a place beside his mother and father and grandmother, on the family burial plot that we thought he'd be buried on.
Nothing can quell the rage I feel inside toward my mother and older sister. She duped them. I tried to warn them, but she won their hearts... I never wanted anything from them, but their respect.
At least at that last visit my Dad told me how much he loved me and respected the man I had become...
I'm sorry for the lost of your father.
I hope some how you find peace within your heart from the rage you have towards your other family members.
May peace comfort you no matter what happens.
I pray that love and happiness surrounds you.