Friday I went and picked up the ashes of my dogs. My vet made castings of their paws, and when I opened the bag and saw those I lost it. I miss them. I miss my life.
Weekends suck so much right now. During the week, I am stronger, because I wrap myself in work, but by Friday I am so burnt out and exhausted, I just can't do anything else.
Today I slept all day. There was nothing else to do. Nothing to take care of, no reason to go outside. I am starting to hate this apartment.
I really am trying to think positively. I know I get to build the dream house, and right now living in town is neat. I can walk over to a restaurant and eat, rather than have to drive 20 mins.
Today, I just miss my life. I miss my dogs, and caring for them. I miss walking around outside in the country. I miss going home.
Ugh, I wish this part of my life would just go away.
Weekends suck so much right now. During the week, I am stronger, because I wrap myself in work, but by Friday I am so burnt out and exhausted, I just can't do anything else.
Today I slept all day. There was nothing else to do. Nothing to take care of, no reason to go outside. I am starting to hate this apartment.
I really am trying to think positively. I know I get to build the dream house, and right now living in town is neat. I can walk over to a restaurant and eat, rather than have to drive 20 mins.
Today, I just miss my life. I miss my dogs, and caring for them. I miss walking around outside in the country. I miss going home.
Ugh, I wish this part of my life would just go away.