EveWasFramed said:
CTF...some of us are born that way - hardwired to be "worriers." I stopped beating myself up over it and learned to accept it a long time ago. It's who we ARE. Just recently I was asked, "Can't you ever just live in the moment?" I thought to myself, no, I can't. I'm not made that way. Sure, I can enjoy the moment, but my mind will always be thinking about what I already did and what I still need to do. It's just who I am.
One of my nicknames the ex had for me was StressGirl. 'Nuff said.
*sigh*
I wonder if I'd be able to accept it better if people would just get out of my face about it. I am sick of people telling me to chill. I can do that well enough on my own. Tel myself to chill, that is, not actually CHILL. I can only chill if I've had some Rx drugs or a drink or two.