RobertJW
Well-known member
I have just spoken to my ex wife on the phone.
She won't go out with me even as a friend. She won't take me back even on a trial basis. She says she never wants anything to do with me again. She says nasty hurtful stuff to me. She says she doesn't love me and won't love me ever again.
But I love her so much it hurts.
As I sit here typing this through tears, I ask myself why? Why?
I hate living like this, if I had the bottle I'd kill myself, but as it is I'm too cowardly. So I have to live this shitty life, in constant depression and always on the verge of tears. Apart from my kids I have absolutely nothing. A life bereft of emotional fulfillment is hardly worth living.
What makes it worse is I know I'll never meet anyone else to help me "move on". Without the emotional support of someone I will be stuck like this til the blessed release of death.
Sorry to sound so morbid but thats how I feel and I hate it.
She won't go out with me even as a friend. She won't take me back even on a trial basis. She says she never wants anything to do with me again. She says nasty hurtful stuff to me. She says she doesn't love me and won't love me ever again.
But I love her so much it hurts.
As I sit here typing this through tears, I ask myself why? Why?
I hate living like this, if I had the bottle I'd kill myself, but as it is I'm too cowardly. So I have to live this shitty life, in constant depression and always on the verge of tears. Apart from my kids I have absolutely nothing. A life bereft of emotional fulfillment is hardly worth living.
What makes it worse is I know I'll never meet anyone else to help me "move on". Without the emotional support of someone I will be stuck like this til the blessed release of death.
Sorry to sound so morbid but thats how I feel and I hate it.