apathy
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"What is the purpose of life?"
I'm pretty sure that this question has been around for a reaaaally long time and has crossed most people's minds.
Yes, It's a subjective question...
Albert Einstein had once said, "Only a life lived for others is worth living."
I've always been by myself as a kid, sitting at the back of class with my nose in a book. I was the kid who would hide at the encyclopedia section of the library where I knew that the other kids wouldn't find me.
Home wasn't much of a home either. I never really understood why and how emotions came so easily and naturally to most people.
Perhaps I have been emotionally and socially stunted since the 6th grade when I stood up for this disabled girl and got thrashed by the other kids for that.
From that experience, I learnt that most people would conform and join the crowd like mindless sheep.
The beginning of high school did not help my isolation and "anti-social" behaviour, as one of my teachers had snidely put it. Up till this point, I have only one childhood friend from elementary school.. and we live in different countries now.
I'll be in my final year of high school next year and I haven't really been "living a life for others" as there's pretty much no one to live for. During schooldays, I'm always intensely working on schoolwork that I *forget* that I'm lonely. Now that it's the holidays, I'm self-reflecting again... Is it possible to feel satisfied by living a life for myself? That is, even if I do get the grades and get into some university course that relates to my interests (sociology, art therapy etc), would I be happy?
It's not that I want to be alone, I just can't relate to most people or feel any connection whatsoever. (Hence the name, apathy.)
I sort of envisioned myself as this future 30-something workaholic chic who ends up as an old spinster with 17 cats (heh heh the crazy cat lady!).. or failing college and working in the food service industry.. !
Though I would most probably get the booger-picking fat kid killed with food poisoning due to my poor food preparation skills.
Uhm.. yeah that was a long post. I doubt people would be replying to this as I'm someone who has a short attention span myself ^^ .. or maybe several people are already foaming in the mouth, spasming on the ground with all my boring talk. Heheheh..
I'm pretty sure that this question has been around for a reaaaally long time and has crossed most people's minds.
Yes, It's a subjective question...
Albert Einstein had once said, "Only a life lived for others is worth living."
I've always been by myself as a kid, sitting at the back of class with my nose in a book. I was the kid who would hide at the encyclopedia section of the library where I knew that the other kids wouldn't find me.
Home wasn't much of a home either. I never really understood why and how emotions came so easily and naturally to most people.
Perhaps I have been emotionally and socially stunted since the 6th grade when I stood up for this disabled girl and got thrashed by the other kids for that.
From that experience, I learnt that most people would conform and join the crowd like mindless sheep.
The beginning of high school did not help my isolation and "anti-social" behaviour, as one of my teachers had snidely put it. Up till this point, I have only one childhood friend from elementary school.. and we live in different countries now.
I'll be in my final year of high school next year and I haven't really been "living a life for others" as there's pretty much no one to live for. During schooldays, I'm always intensely working on schoolwork that I *forget* that I'm lonely. Now that it's the holidays, I'm self-reflecting again... Is it possible to feel satisfied by living a life for myself? That is, even if I do get the grades and get into some university course that relates to my interests (sociology, art therapy etc), would I be happy?
It's not that I want to be alone, I just can't relate to most people or feel any connection whatsoever. (Hence the name, apathy.)
I sort of envisioned myself as this future 30-something workaholic chic who ends up as an old spinster with 17 cats (heh heh the crazy cat lady!).. or failing college and working in the food service industry.. !
Though I would most probably get the booger-picking fat kid killed with food poisoning due to my poor food preparation skills.
Uhm.. yeah that was a long post. I doubt people would be replying to this as I'm someone who has a short attention span myself ^^ .. or maybe several people are already foaming in the mouth, spasming on the ground with all my boring talk. Heheheh..