Broken_n_Lost
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I really dont know what Im doing right now...my head is messed up (with all my personal crap) and now Im getting into something which I shouldnt be getting into...and Im flipping confused.
He's a guy from work (alarm bells should already be going off) and we had one kiss at the beginning of the year (which was nice!), then I got all weird (coz Im stupid like that and I feel too scared to get into something real with anyone, hence why Im on here) and we didnt speak for ages (but remained professional at work). Then we went to a colleagues wedding (two months back) and had a nice time and again we kissed (again amazing). We dated for a short while (I mean a week!!!!) I texted him I need space and that we wanted different things and he left me alone. One week after my text he got with someone and now he is moving to Brazil for this new woman. I was initially hurt by how quick he moved on but saw he was truly happy so I let him be. We have always remained professional at work and no hard feelings between us. Im in a vulnerable place right now (work and family issues) and we all went out for a drink late night and when the night was over I found him in my arms again. This is messed up, I dont like this situation at all but I really dont want him regretting things so I told him to go Brazil coz I know he will regret not going. But he wants me to convince him that he should stay. I dont know what to do but then again I do, I know Im messed up and I think people like me need to be alone, we just cant handle love or being loved or understand being loved. I mean I doubt everything he declares for me because he went with someone one week after me. But he claims I broke his heart by my text...
I want him to be happy. I dont think I can do that. Thank you for reading, I know what I will do, put my walls up and allow him to move on.
He's a guy from work (alarm bells should already be going off) and we had one kiss at the beginning of the year (which was nice!), then I got all weird (coz Im stupid like that and I feel too scared to get into something real with anyone, hence why Im on here) and we didnt speak for ages (but remained professional at work). Then we went to a colleagues wedding (two months back) and had a nice time and again we kissed (again amazing). We dated for a short while (I mean a week!!!!) I texted him I need space and that we wanted different things and he left me alone. One week after my text he got with someone and now he is moving to Brazil for this new woman. I was initially hurt by how quick he moved on but saw he was truly happy so I let him be. We have always remained professional at work and no hard feelings between us. Im in a vulnerable place right now (work and family issues) and we all went out for a drink late night and when the night was over I found him in my arms again. This is messed up, I dont like this situation at all but I really dont want him regretting things so I told him to go Brazil coz I know he will regret not going. But he wants me to convince him that he should stay. I dont know what to do but then again I do, I know Im messed up and I think people like me need to be alone, we just cant handle love or being loved or understand being loved. I mean I doubt everything he declares for me because he went with someone one week after me. But he claims I broke his heart by my text...
I want him to be happy. I dont think I can do that. Thank you for reading, I know what I will do, put my walls up and allow him to move on.