littlerunawa
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I've visited this forum a while ago (I think it's been a couple of years). I'm not in my best mood lately and I don't really have anyone to talk to about it. so here's the thing:
I'm a second year student (just started second year this Sunday). I've started Uni relatively late, just before I turned 28, so practically all of my fellow students are younger (18-25) than me. add to that the fact that I'm not a very social person (I don't make friends easily) and the result is I have practically no social contact with other students, I feel like I have nothing in common with them and don't really have any desire to find friends among them. but that's not the real issue.
last semester I did this course and homework had to be submitted in pairs. I found myself a partner and by pure dumb luck, I found the only guy that's older than me. we ended up spending long hours together on the assignments, we got a long really well and soon enough I fell crazy in love with him (and I'm not talking about a high school crush).
at some point I realized I'm simply not his type and nothing ever happened between us. anyway, before previous semester ended we already agreed to partner up on a couple of courses we're both taking this year, cuz we worked together really well.
but now he went and got himself a girlfriend. first it was "this girl I started to date" and then yesterday it changed to "I'm spending the night at my girlfriend's place". needless to say, that every time I hear something like that my heart breaks into a few more pieces but I hide it really well.
so now I'm kind of stuck. I really like spending time with him and now I don't really have a choice because of the courses we're talking together, but hearing him talk about this girlfriend of his hurts like hell. and since we get along so well, he feels comfortable around me (he said it himself once) and tells me all kind of stuff they're doing together (nothing sexual). every time that happens I get this feeling I just want to quit everything and runaway somewhere where I'll never see or hear from him again.
so how do I deal with this?
I can't leave, can't break our agreement, can't tell him how I feel about him. don't see myself falling for someone else anytime soon (men in general don't seem to like me, in the romantic kind of way)...
any kind of advice would be much appreciated.
p.s. English is not my mother tongue so i'm sorry for any grammar or spelling mistakes.
I'm a second year student (just started second year this Sunday). I've started Uni relatively late, just before I turned 28, so practically all of my fellow students are younger (18-25) than me. add to that the fact that I'm not a very social person (I don't make friends easily) and the result is I have practically no social contact with other students, I feel like I have nothing in common with them and don't really have any desire to find friends among them. but that's not the real issue.
last semester I did this course and homework had to be submitted in pairs. I found myself a partner and by pure dumb luck, I found the only guy that's older than me. we ended up spending long hours together on the assignments, we got a long really well and soon enough I fell crazy in love with him (and I'm not talking about a high school crush).
at some point I realized I'm simply not his type and nothing ever happened between us. anyway, before previous semester ended we already agreed to partner up on a couple of courses we're both taking this year, cuz we worked together really well.
but now he went and got himself a girlfriend. first it was "this girl I started to date" and then yesterday it changed to "I'm spending the night at my girlfriend's place". needless to say, that every time I hear something like that my heart breaks into a few more pieces but I hide it really well.
so now I'm kind of stuck. I really like spending time with him and now I don't really have a choice because of the courses we're talking together, but hearing him talk about this girlfriend of his hurts like hell. and since we get along so well, he feels comfortable around me (he said it himself once) and tells me all kind of stuff they're doing together (nothing sexual). every time that happens I get this feeling I just want to quit everything and runaway somewhere where I'll never see or hear from him again.
so how do I deal with this?
I can't leave, can't break our agreement, can't tell him how I feel about him. don't see myself falling for someone else anytime soon (men in general don't seem to like me, in the romantic kind of way)...
any kind of advice would be much appreciated.
p.s. English is not my mother tongue so i'm sorry for any grammar or spelling mistakes.