SomeoneSomewhere
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Since the past few days, I've come to the realization that I have a swollen ego. I probably already knew that I had it but let's just say that I've come to the realization that it could actually be a bad thing.
The thing is, I have nothing to be that egoistical about (you know, the same old - not rich, not good looking...). But I probably put it up because it repels people which in-turn saves me from making connections and ultimately experiencing hurt in some form.
Now that ego, which I refer to as my "shell" has hardened and actually comes off as ego or arrogant whereas I never actually try to mean that. And because I have that, I probably come off to people as "proud" as first, which makes them respect me at my face and I don't know what happens later (but I know that isn't good).
Now behaving like this for all the while that I have has sort of strengthened my belief that I'm somehow right and I have a right to behave that way. I don't want to change that but I know that I have to and I know that I should. Sadly, I've kind of accepted it as a "personality trait" of mine and I feel like I can't change it.
Does anyone here have this problem? Any solutions?
Well, I've experienced all the "humbling" experiences in the world - failures, life problems, losses, you name it! Still, it hasn't humbled me (it has done just the opposite of that).
The thing is, I have nothing to be that egoistical about (you know, the same old - not rich, not good looking...). But I probably put it up because it repels people which in-turn saves me from making connections and ultimately experiencing hurt in some form.
Now that ego, which I refer to as my "shell" has hardened and actually comes off as ego or arrogant whereas I never actually try to mean that. And because I have that, I probably come off to people as "proud" as first, which makes them respect me at my face and I don't know what happens later (but I know that isn't good).
Now behaving like this for all the while that I have has sort of strengthened my belief that I'm somehow right and I have a right to behave that way. I don't want to change that but I know that I have to and I know that I should. Sadly, I've kind of accepted it as a "personality trait" of mine and I feel like I can't change it.
Does anyone here have this problem? Any solutions?
Well, I've experienced all the "humbling" experiences in the world - failures, life problems, losses, you name it! Still, it hasn't humbled me (it has done just the opposite of that).