Cavonnier
Member
I joined this forum last week and I've been meaning to post a rant on this forum, but I didn't feel the motivation to do so until now.
As I revealed in a post on the relationships forum, I'm trying (and failing) to overcome a devastating breakup that included infidelity on the part of my girlfriend. While this by itself is good cause for somebody to be upset, it's also made me acutely aware of how lonesome I am.
Ever since sixth grade or so, I've been somewhat of an outcast. I'm strongly introverted and I've always had obscure interests. I seldom become interested in mainstream activities.
It doesn't help how I left my home state in 2008 and moved across the country for career purposes. My job is great, but lately it has started to feel routine and I feel like I don't have much room for advancement. Also, I have to work weekends, which makes it difficult to meet people because so many social activities are held those days.
And while I'd love to meet more people and have a better social life, it doesn't help when you feel like you have little in common with most people. I don't care about the local sports teams, I don't care about popular television shows, I don't care about upcoming movie releases, and I don't care about current music. I stopped following politics when I realized it was only making me cranky and cynical. I'm agnostic, so I can't find refuge in faith or a church community. These were underlying issues before the breakup, but until the end I remained passionate about my relationship.
It's hard to say what I am passionate about these days. I guess I'm in a rut. I'm a firm believer one should either make the necessary changes in their lives to be happy or stop complaining, but I frankly I have no idea what changes I need to make. I have gone out a few times to try to meet new people, but it seems like the conversation inevitably stalls, which makes even more painful knowing I had somebody who seemed to understand me before she broke my heart.
I don't know what to do. Is there anybody else here who deals with such feelings of apathy and disengagement? Maybe I should see a therapist? Maybe I have depression and I need medication? Maybe I need to return to my native state? Maybe I need to just ride out this painfully slow healing process? I'm definitely open to advice and suggestions!
As I revealed in a post on the relationships forum, I'm trying (and failing) to overcome a devastating breakup that included infidelity on the part of my girlfriend. While this by itself is good cause for somebody to be upset, it's also made me acutely aware of how lonesome I am.
Ever since sixth grade or so, I've been somewhat of an outcast. I'm strongly introverted and I've always had obscure interests. I seldom become interested in mainstream activities.
It doesn't help how I left my home state in 2008 and moved across the country for career purposes. My job is great, but lately it has started to feel routine and I feel like I don't have much room for advancement. Also, I have to work weekends, which makes it difficult to meet people because so many social activities are held those days.
And while I'd love to meet more people and have a better social life, it doesn't help when you feel like you have little in common with most people. I don't care about the local sports teams, I don't care about popular television shows, I don't care about upcoming movie releases, and I don't care about current music. I stopped following politics when I realized it was only making me cranky and cynical. I'm agnostic, so I can't find refuge in faith or a church community. These were underlying issues before the breakup, but until the end I remained passionate about my relationship.
It's hard to say what I am passionate about these days. I guess I'm in a rut. I'm a firm believer one should either make the necessary changes in their lives to be happy or stop complaining, but I frankly I have no idea what changes I need to make. I have gone out a few times to try to meet new people, but it seems like the conversation inevitably stalls, which makes even more painful knowing I had somebody who seemed to understand me before she broke my heart.
I don't know what to do. Is there anybody else here who deals with such feelings of apathy and disengagement? Maybe I should see a therapist? Maybe I have depression and I need medication? Maybe I need to return to my native state? Maybe I need to just ride out this painfully slow healing process? I'm definitely open to advice and suggestions!