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Borderline personality disorder is a condition in which a person has impulsive actions, an unstable mood and the inability to maintain relationships. It's mostly girls (like me) that get it. Relationships with others are intense and unstable. They swing wildly from love to hate and back again.There are a lot of other symptoms, like cutting, hypersexuality, risky behavior, and serious identity and self concept issues. When I was a teenager I would hitch-hike just to see where the adventure would take me. I'm into fetishes and I've been in orgies. I've had gender identity issues. I drank, smoked pot and did acid. A few times I smoked cocaine. I would burn myself with cigarettes. I've calmed down with age but I still have explosive mood swings.
My entire life I've made and lost friends, simply because I have a hard time controlling my emotions. I tell someone to leave me alone forever, and then they do. Or I get dissapointed or disgusted in someone and just stop talking to them. Sometimes I don't know how my husband puts up with me, when real feelings of hatred randomly go through my blood. And then I feel really guilty about everything, and I get so embarassed I dont talk to those people anymore. There have been times that Ive had friends or even best friends where I loved the person very much, but I always end up somehow ending the relationship.
I really am nice though. I don't have any bad intentions. I'm really loyal and I've never been two faced or manipulative.
does anyone here have experiences with BPD ?
does anyone have issues with any mental illness ?
would you give up on someone who seems like they want you to go away ?
My entire life I've made and lost friends, simply because I have a hard time controlling my emotions. I tell someone to leave me alone forever, and then they do. Or I get dissapointed or disgusted in someone and just stop talking to them. Sometimes I don't know how my husband puts up with me, when real feelings of hatred randomly go through my blood. And then I feel really guilty about everything, and I get so embarassed I dont talk to those people anymore. There have been times that Ive had friends or even best friends where I loved the person very much, but I always end up somehow ending the relationship.
I really am nice though. I don't have any bad intentions. I'm really loyal and I've never been two faced or manipulative.
does anyone here have experiences with BPD ?
does anyone have issues with any mental illness ?
would you give up on someone who seems like they want you to go away ?