I don't know where to start and where to end so i'll just tell you guys as the though passes or goes in my mind,please bare with me English is not my native language. I am really hopeless and lost right now,it seems that life for me has no meaning at all. I am like a walking zombie with nowhere to go.
First i manged to screw up my job(not the first time).It has been my pattern and i really don't know what is up with me,it's like i fear that something that good(my job)will not stay forever. And now i'm financially broke,my rent is due on July 30,i might be homeless after that,God knows what is gonna happen next,i fear every waking day, I just wanna bury myself in sleep and not wake up at all. Maybe that will be a good idea because right now i really don't know what to do.
I have a very low self esteem this due to myself being so shy and all. I don't have any deformities or something like that,i am just like this, i would rather be alone than socialize with other people.
Sorry for the mixed sentences here guys. My mind is wandering like a kite.
Anyway i am thinking that i should sell my kidney to pay for the mountains of debt that i'm in right now. That might even help someone in their sickness. I dont care what will happen to me afterwards.
I am really sad
First i manged to screw up my job(not the first time).It has been my pattern and i really don't know what is up with me,it's like i fear that something that good(my job)will not stay forever. And now i'm financially broke,my rent is due on July 30,i might be homeless after that,God knows what is gonna happen next,i fear every waking day, I just wanna bury myself in sleep and not wake up at all. Maybe that will be a good idea because right now i really don't know what to do.
I have a very low self esteem this due to myself being so shy and all. I don't have any deformities or something like that,i am just like this, i would rather be alone than socialize with other people.
Sorry for the mixed sentences here guys. My mind is wandering like a kite.
Anyway i am thinking that i should sell my kidney to pay for the mountains of debt that i'm in right now. That might even help someone in their sickness. I dont care what will happen to me afterwards.
I am really sad