there is no hope
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About ready to lose everything. Walls crashing in on me. No way out. Everyone is malicious and cruel, not just greedy. This is a sick system, they already took away my past and now they will take away my future.
I try to get through every day, but soon it will be over. It's so disgusting that my life has become this. None of this had to happen. Stupid, stupid people doing stupid things for stupid reasons, or worse reasons of pure malice and cruelty for their own sake.
In the end the only person left to take all the blame is myself. Others are guilty but responsibility always falls to those at the bottom, that is the world that has been set up. Better people than me have been ruined, it's just my turn.
...and if someone suggests I need professional help, please kindly go to Hell. I never wanted any of this honeysuckle, and after almost 20 years or repeated failure and incompetence, why on Earth would I ever trust those people with anything? They had a greater hand in ruining my life than the average guilty party, and lost nothing. The best thing in my life, such as it was, was turning my back on them forever.
I'm so sick of lie after lie, all for the sake of an evil belief system. All for them... it's a simple answer to the question "who benefits?". And what is the benefit, except the thrill certain people get from routine degradation and humiliiation? All of this, and so much more suffering around the world, to placate these monsters.
I try to get through every day, but soon it will be over. It's so disgusting that my life has become this. None of this had to happen. Stupid, stupid people doing stupid things for stupid reasons, or worse reasons of pure malice and cruelty for their own sake.
In the end the only person left to take all the blame is myself. Others are guilty but responsibility always falls to those at the bottom, that is the world that has been set up. Better people than me have been ruined, it's just my turn.
...and if someone suggests I need professional help, please kindly go to Hell. I never wanted any of this honeysuckle, and after almost 20 years or repeated failure and incompetence, why on Earth would I ever trust those people with anything? They had a greater hand in ruining my life than the average guilty party, and lost nothing. The best thing in my life, such as it was, was turning my back on them forever.
I'm so sick of lie after lie, all for the sake of an evil belief system. All for them... it's a simple answer to the question "who benefits?". And what is the benefit, except the thrill certain people get from routine degradation and humiliiation? All of this, and so much more suffering around the world, to placate these monsters.