Among the Sleep
Well-known member
I definitely have a drug problem. Not with any one thing in particular, but it's like I'm always trying to fill a hole. I have no control over myself. Every time the opportunity to get high on something presents itself, I take FULL advantage of it. And I love all of em. I love ecstasy, booze, cocaine, especially opiates. I'm coming down off the cocaine and beer from tonight and all I can think about it is how bad I want a klonopin. I know all this honeysuckle affects my mental state in a bad way, but the sad thing is, sobriety doesn't feel any better. You'd think it would, but it's really just boring. Being high all the time is way better, even though you're dealing with comedowns, spending way too much money, etc., at least you get to feel something, even if it's only for a couple hours or something. Can anyone relate? God I'm a fuckin' goose egg.