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I have always had issues with my self-esteem. It drove me to join the military, and get a well respected job. But, it just never seems to be enough. I work so hard to become something, and I work to make it more than just skin deep. No matter how many layers that one could peel away they realize that it is genuinely me. I do not act kind towards others, I am kind... I do not feign sympathy, compassion, or understanding.
I hoped that this would be a respected. I don't feel as if I am worth much yet. Maybe it is because of my past relationships that ended up with them leaving me for someone I thought was substandard, or better yet, being friend zoned for someone I thought substandard. It is as if they can see me, fit, kind, responsible, and in my crisp dress blues, but they can't resist that sexy lil crack addict in the corner with vomit on his shirt.
We could also go to may past and my relationship with my mother and father, but honestly, no one needs that on their mind today.
I measure my worth by how others view me, and this is the fallacy for which I have fallen. I want to know, what is so wrong with me that I am such an unwanted and overlooked person?
I hoped that this would be a respected. I don't feel as if I am worth much yet. Maybe it is because of my past relationships that ended up with them leaving me for someone I thought was substandard, or better yet, being friend zoned for someone I thought substandard. It is as if they can see me, fit, kind, responsible, and in my crisp dress blues, but they can't resist that sexy lil crack addict in the corner with vomit on his shirt.
We could also go to may past and my relationship with my mother and father, but honestly, no one needs that on their mind today.
I measure my worth by how others view me, and this is the fallacy for which I have fallen. I want to know, what is so wrong with me that I am such an unwanted and overlooked person?