Hi everyone. I am just posting to share that I am terrified of seeing my family these upcoming holidays/Xmas. I have a history of trauma with them. I am not yet at the stage where I can just walk away. I live on the other side of the country so I don't see many during the year. But this Christmas I will see them and I am terrified. I literally wake up in the middle of the night with unbelievable dread. I just wanted to share that and see if anyone else has a similar experience?