Hello,
I've been quiet/shy/introverted ever since I can remember. I was always the one that sat alone and played by myself at school. I'm 23 now and beginning to find the loneliness unbearable, up to the point i'd rather not be here anymore. I live alone with no company and no one to talk to. My family lives in different countries and I haven't seen them in years.
When I'm around people I feel extremely shy, anxious, self conscious. It's difficult for me to say anything at all most of the time, and when I don't talk I feel like I must come across as 'boring' or 'uninteresting', then I feel guilty when the other person has to carry the conversation to avoid the awkward silence. I wish more than anything I could just be myself, as I don't feel like anyone has ever seen the real me. In all, I feel as though my life is just one big empty void that I'm incapable of filling...
Can anyone relate?
I've been quiet/shy/introverted ever since I can remember. I was always the one that sat alone and played by myself at school. I'm 23 now and beginning to find the loneliness unbearable, up to the point i'd rather not be here anymore. I live alone with no company and no one to talk to. My family lives in different countries and I haven't seen them in years.
When I'm around people I feel extremely shy, anxious, self conscious. It's difficult for me to say anything at all most of the time, and when I don't talk I feel like I must come across as 'boring' or 'uninteresting', then I feel guilty when the other person has to carry the conversation to avoid the awkward silence. I wish more than anything I could just be myself, as I don't feel like anyone has ever seen the real me. In all, I feel as though my life is just one big empty void that I'm incapable of filling...
Can anyone relate?