HappyYogi
Well-known member
Hi All...this is more a vent...and a cry for help.
Actually it isn't that bad at all...just feeling a bit anxious.
I am hosting a party today. It's a good party...an amazing block party my neighborhood has and I am hosting a party within a party.
I always go thru all kinds of emotions with this. I love to be light hearted, loving a fun (my highest self) but when I put myself out there with a party I can't help but feel some disappointment.
I don't have many friends at all but I do love to be social and create fun. These parties are a good way for me to invite others I'd like to get to know better.
I did that this time and as always, some don't even write back at all and at least a few don't come. I know to not take this person (most of the time it's not) but it still stings.
It still stings like "do I not matter so much that I don't even deserve a reply?" That kind of thing.
There are people in my social group who have never responded favorably to any of my fun parties...I just don't invite them anymore. I am not angry at them but I just don't make an effort. I often wonder why can't they come? Why do they have to be so indifferent?
This time I invited members of a meetup I am part of and more of them are coming than my own friends!!! I think it will be OK because I checked their interests and they all seem like interesting people like we have things in common. I wrote down their common interests...and plant to ask them about it and as I say "hi" to each one.
Are my feelings normal?
Actually it isn't that bad at all...just feeling a bit anxious.
I am hosting a party today. It's a good party...an amazing block party my neighborhood has and I am hosting a party within a party.
I always go thru all kinds of emotions with this. I love to be light hearted, loving a fun (my highest self) but when I put myself out there with a party I can't help but feel some disappointment.
I don't have many friends at all but I do love to be social and create fun. These parties are a good way for me to invite others I'd like to get to know better.
I did that this time and as always, some don't even write back at all and at least a few don't come. I know to not take this person (most of the time it's not) but it still stings.
It still stings like "do I not matter so much that I don't even deserve a reply?" That kind of thing.
There are people in my social group who have never responded favorably to any of my fun parties...I just don't invite them anymore. I am not angry at them but I just don't make an effort. I often wonder why can't they come? Why do they have to be so indifferent?
This time I invited members of a meetup I am part of and more of them are coming than my own friends!!! I think it will be OK because I checked their interests and they all seem like interesting people like we have things in common. I wrote down their common interests...and plant to ask them about it and as I say "hi" to each one.
Are my feelings normal?