I am 16. old teenager that is becoming totally insane as months pass.
I have social anxiety, depression, panic attacks, violent behavior(thoughts), no self esteem, computer addiction(Counter Strike and World of Warcraft), bisexual, low voice power.
I am in my house all day playing games and working out with constant problems that i told there ... People love to make fun of me and everything they say hits me deep and makes me sick. Most of the times when someone insult me badly in-front of whole class something explodes in my head and i cant think and i hardly move my body next 10 seconds.
People always team up versus me in all situations even if i am right. People use me as a tool to get along with other dudes like "Look at him hahaha what an idiot" and they all laugh together.
My hands and legs are shaking constantly and i can't think. Last few days i've been making some crazy sounds and did mad evil scientist laughs when my parents criticize me. Also when i laugh like mad i feel no more depressed. I am mentally weak so everything that people say to me hurt me badly while i am physical strong.I cant feel happiness no matter what. I am sure that my dad have social anxiety too cuz he behave like me in social places.
What might be the reason for all this and most important why should i do to start enjoying my life.
I have social anxiety, depression, panic attacks, violent behavior(thoughts), no self esteem, computer addiction(Counter Strike and World of Warcraft), bisexual, low voice power.
I am in my house all day playing games and working out with constant problems that i told there ... People love to make fun of me and everything they say hits me deep and makes me sick. Most of the times when someone insult me badly in-front of whole class something explodes in my head and i cant think and i hardly move my body next 10 seconds.
People always team up versus me in all situations even if i am right. People use me as a tool to get along with other dudes like "Look at him hahaha what an idiot" and they all laugh together.
My hands and legs are shaking constantly and i can't think. Last few days i've been making some crazy sounds and did mad evil scientist laughs when my parents criticize me. Also when i laugh like mad i feel no more depressed. I am mentally weak so everything that people say to me hurt me badly while i am physical strong.I cant feel happiness no matter what. I am sure that my dad have social anxiety too cuz he behave like me in social places.
What might be the reason for all this and most important why should i do to start enjoying my life.