You're very sensitive, that's impressive, really, but that's also one of the many reasons you should stay here, ....actually I think the world needs people like you,
it's very hard to find people like this these days ... so you won't stay lonely for the rest of your life, someone will surely appreaciate it, you just have to meet that someone.
Losing a loved one prematurely is a pain that can't be explained in words, it's terrible and I truly wish 'll never have to see that happen in my life, but ... if you look at the birghtside of this situation; While for the ones that remain it's an agony, the dead ones are not suffering anymore and if they have lived a righteous life will be in a place much better than the one we are living in right now.
I would never be able to be a nurse, I can't witness these kind of happenings without feeling terrible sadness, and despair ... it's a very very tough job, I respect the ones who are doing it despite this just for the sake of helping others.
Be strong, losing your life won't do any good to them nor to you ... keep living and live well instead so that when your time will come you too will go to a better place.
There's a time for everyone, it's just not right to anticipate it, until the very last second we should live the best we could and try to take the best out of what we have given, it's hard, I know it's hard but I think we should at least try to do it or live with this kind of mentality anyway.
I wish the best to you and these people, I wish the best to everyone.
* virtual hug *