Ok, I've been thinking much more positively lately but my mind feels like it has been having an on going war between negativity and positivity. Don't worry this isn't another generalization or at least I hope it isn't :S.
Before this forum, I used to go another forum that was full of self centered people, who thought they were just it, and truly only thought about what they could gain from everything. Of course not everyone was like that but I guess it was the place that filled me up with such negative thoughts so I don't go there anymore.
What I'm getting at is that I'm becoming ready to branch out and try to get into relationships but I'm afraid of the consequences of being so inexperienced. I guess I just want to be reassured that there are truly plenty of people out there who don't care about all that. Since some of the thoughts from that other forum composed of people saying that they wouldn't want someone who is inexperienced. I know that there are plenty of people who don't care about that, but I'm just afraid I'll run into the ones who feels that way.
Such examples include being bad at kissing or not knowing how to please someone in bed. I guess some people are so focused on what pleasure they receive from others so I'm typically afraid of running into such a person which would hurt this self-esteem I'm trying to grow. Another example from how some people think that terrifies me is(which has nothing to do with being inexperinced) that some of these women on the forum I go talked about how if a man isn't big enough down there, they said they would drop him. I know that not everyone thinks this way! I'm just saying I guess I'm terrified in running into people like this so its holding me back from doing what I want to do.
I'm just having a rather hard time coping and feeling ok with how inexperienced I am. Just how it effects how other people will see me because there are some people who would laugh at it. I know that there are plenty of people who think much differently and I hope to find them. I have met friends online who think the way I hope someone will think when I meet someone out in public so I know they are out there. I guess if I meet someone who looks down upon me for being so inexperienced I should just take it well and think they were no good for me anyways. But it's just so hard to take it that well, so I guess I need to finally man-up and just try to see where it gets me. So there are plenty of people who don't look down upon such a lack of experience right 0_o? Just so afraid of what may happen when I try to put myself out there.
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Sorry if I'm so self conscious all the time and question everything. I'm really trying to improve so I just post a little here and there to try and help me vent some frustrations a bit. This is not a generalization this time and I just want to thank this forum for being so great with so many understanding people who are so helpful.
Before this forum, I used to go another forum that was full of self centered people, who thought they were just it, and truly only thought about what they could gain from everything. Of course not everyone was like that but I guess it was the place that filled me up with such negative thoughts so I don't go there anymore.
What I'm getting at is that I'm becoming ready to branch out and try to get into relationships but I'm afraid of the consequences of being so inexperienced. I guess I just want to be reassured that there are truly plenty of people out there who don't care about all that. Since some of the thoughts from that other forum composed of people saying that they wouldn't want someone who is inexperienced. I know that there are plenty of people who don't care about that, but I'm just afraid I'll run into the ones who feels that way.
Such examples include being bad at kissing or not knowing how to please someone in bed. I guess some people are so focused on what pleasure they receive from others so I'm typically afraid of running into such a person which would hurt this self-esteem I'm trying to grow. Another example from how some people think that terrifies me is(which has nothing to do with being inexperinced) that some of these women on the forum I go talked about how if a man isn't big enough down there, they said they would drop him. I know that not everyone thinks this way! I'm just saying I guess I'm terrified in running into people like this so its holding me back from doing what I want to do.
I'm just having a rather hard time coping and feeling ok with how inexperienced I am. Just how it effects how other people will see me because there are some people who would laugh at it. I know that there are plenty of people who think much differently and I hope to find them. I have met friends online who think the way I hope someone will think when I meet someone out in public so I know they are out there. I guess if I meet someone who looks down upon me for being so inexperienced I should just take it well and think they were no good for me anyways. But it's just so hard to take it that well, so I guess I need to finally man-up and just try to see where it gets me. So there are plenty of people who don't look down upon such a lack of experience right 0_o? Just so afraid of what may happen when I try to put myself out there.
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Sorry if I'm so self conscious all the time and question everything. I'm really trying to improve so I just post a little here and there to try and help me vent some frustrations a bit. This is not a generalization this time and I just want to thank this forum for being so great with so many understanding people who are so helpful.