I feel like I've gotten trapped in this cycle and am trying hard to get out of it. So I thought there might be some people out there who could relate and we could discuss.
I'm not actually completely isolated. I have family, as I'm sure most of you do, and friends (using the term loosely) but we don't talk often and rarely see each other. It's not the same sort of connection/companionship you get with close friends or a partner.
But the cycle started with isolation, then became loneliness, then depression and anxiety. Now it's like the more I try to get out, the more anxious and panicked I become, the more I want to continue to be alone (hiding myself at home lol) but that makes me feel more depressed and eager to get out more.. To find connection, to work on my anxiety and shyness etc...If that makes sense.
I'm not actually completely isolated. I have family, as I'm sure most of you do, and friends (using the term loosely) but we don't talk often and rarely see each other. It's not the same sort of connection/companionship you get with close friends or a partner.
But the cycle started with isolation, then became loneliness, then depression and anxiety. Now it's like the more I try to get out, the more anxious and panicked I become, the more I want to continue to be alone (hiding myself at home lol) but that makes me feel more depressed and eager to get out more.. To find connection, to work on my anxiety and shyness etc...If that makes sense.