I do know the reasons why I get so lonely, often! So, I just felt like sharing it here, for venting sake. ^_^
I'm a sufferer of anxiety and panic attacks, which only occur in social situations. Online chatting and texting is fine, but face to face situations causes an issue for me. So, I pretty much avoid social situations, not that I want to or happy with this, but I can't exactly help it. I have been through four years of therapy for it, not counting the years spent with bad therapists and under heavy medication, which did not help my issue whatsoever. I'm not giving up on fighting this disorder, not at all, but the suggestions of "just get out more" isn't possible for curing my loneliness.
Another factor I once had was depression. I was chronically depressed, due to the loneliness, for fifteen years. I was suicidal a lot and even use to cut myself too. Thankfully, therapy DID help with that and I've been suicidal and depression free for over five years now.
That isn't a factor of my loneliness anymore but I thought to mention it, in case others are wondering if it's possible to get past depression... it is and don't give up hope!
The main factor for my loneliness is that I don't have many friends... well, I have only one true friend in the world. There are four others I chat with from time to time on Facebook, but that's within months or many weeks in between the silence. I didn't meet my friend until in the middle of my therapy for depression, seven years ago. We are "internet" friends, though she's more like a sister to me. But she's my only friend and she has her own life, as she SHOULD! So, that means I only get to speak with her through a few emails per day, but most of my waking hours is spent alone, wandering Facebook, writing, watching tons of movies or shows on Netflix, or playing massive hours of video games. I'm lonely because I am alone, basically.
I never feel lonely when I'm in conversations with people or my friend is emailing me back and forth. In those moments I'm fine. And the first few hours of watching shows or playing video games is fine, it's when it's been six or eight hours that I feel the loneliness again. I use to have another "friend" that would text with me all day long, but that's another long story and thread. IF I feel like sharing that sad tale. lol. I guess, I'm feeling lonely this autumn because there's no more non-stop communication during my day.
Well, thanks for reading my ramblings. Now, it's time for more Netflix. ^_^
I'm a sufferer of anxiety and panic attacks, which only occur in social situations. Online chatting and texting is fine, but face to face situations causes an issue for me. So, I pretty much avoid social situations, not that I want to or happy with this, but I can't exactly help it. I have been through four years of therapy for it, not counting the years spent with bad therapists and under heavy medication, which did not help my issue whatsoever. I'm not giving up on fighting this disorder, not at all, but the suggestions of "just get out more" isn't possible for curing my loneliness.
Another factor I once had was depression. I was chronically depressed, due to the loneliness, for fifteen years. I was suicidal a lot and even use to cut myself too. Thankfully, therapy DID help with that and I've been suicidal and depression free for over five years now.
That isn't a factor of my loneliness anymore but I thought to mention it, in case others are wondering if it's possible to get past depression... it is and don't give up hope!
The main factor for my loneliness is that I don't have many friends... well, I have only one true friend in the world. There are four others I chat with from time to time on Facebook, but that's within months or many weeks in between the silence. I didn't meet my friend until in the middle of my therapy for depression, seven years ago. We are "internet" friends, though she's more like a sister to me. But she's my only friend and she has her own life, as she SHOULD! So, that means I only get to speak with her through a few emails per day, but most of my waking hours is spent alone, wandering Facebook, writing, watching tons of movies or shows on Netflix, or playing massive hours of video games. I'm lonely because I am alone, basically.
I never feel lonely when I'm in conversations with people or my friend is emailing me back and forth. In those moments I'm fine. And the first few hours of watching shows or playing video games is fine, it's when it's been six or eight hours that I feel the loneliness again. I use to have another "friend" that would text with me all day long, but that's another long story and thread. IF I feel like sharing that sad tale. lol. I guess, I'm feeling lonely this autumn because there's no more non-stop communication during my day.
Well, thanks for reading my ramblings. Now, it's time for more Netflix. ^_^