Maverick1989
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Well i've finally gotten into the mood to post a story about my life.
I have gone through some really lonely years now and I guess it's time for change.
I have already posted a new member greetings thingy in the other forum part but i'll reintroduce myself a bit here. soo... :
Well, my name is Rick, 20 years old and I live in Holland (Netherlands or whatever you'd want to call it. )
It's a tiny country inbetween the UK and Germany which has a sea climate, has over 17 million inhabitants ( most dense populated country in the world after Japan) for the people who don't know.
Anyways, I lived my whole live here and it's a pretty nice place to live..... (if i had'nt be so ******* lonely. )
I think it all started at my 12th year when my mother died because of cancer, it was also the year I was leaving elementary school and went on to highschool (i guess its called like that in english, college is different right?).
I'm a really shy guy so I don't make friends that quickly, but I still had alot of friends from my younger years and some of them went to the same school as I, so that was kind of a relief.
When the months went on some of the more popular kids in the class knew I was shy and picked me for bullying, you know the familliar things like hiding your rugsack, "kick me" notes on the back and more.
Which leaded that i did'nt wanted to go to school anymore and my grades suffered alot from this, so i failed my first year and had to do it all over again, but this time I went to another school.
The school where I went to was located in a smaller village and school was smaller too, which was way better for me... the people were alot nicer here and teachers guided the kids better here than on the other school. The following years were really good, I got my diploma after 4 years without doing any of those years again.
After that I decided I wanted to do something with computers so I went to study (college?) I was 17 when i started and im doing this study and 1 year to go.
But my biggest problem is still that im very shy and don't connect with people that easily and I also never go out to a club or meet friends in any particular way, and im kinda scared to ask them out because they might refuse or make up an excuse to not go out with me.
Im really in a position now where I only communicate with my father (who also is alone, 7 years now) and are very isolated from the outside.
I spend most of my time home and behind my computer, wasting my time on the internet or play games. I'm really clueless and i don't want to keep living like this.
The post is kinda big so I will seperate it a bit over time ( next time im going to talk/vent about my relationships... not that I ever had one... lol)
By the way this forum is great for relieving your feelings
Thanks for any advice
(P.S. I might have made some errors since it's not my native language)
I have gone through some really lonely years now and I guess it's time for change.
I have already posted a new member greetings thingy in the other forum part but i'll reintroduce myself a bit here. soo... :
Well, my name is Rick, 20 years old and I live in Holland (Netherlands or whatever you'd want to call it. )
It's a tiny country inbetween the UK and Germany which has a sea climate, has over 17 million inhabitants ( most dense populated country in the world after Japan) for the people who don't know.
Anyways, I lived my whole live here and it's a pretty nice place to live..... (if i had'nt be so ******* lonely. )
I think it all started at my 12th year when my mother died because of cancer, it was also the year I was leaving elementary school and went on to highschool (i guess its called like that in english, college is different right?).
I'm a really shy guy so I don't make friends that quickly, but I still had alot of friends from my younger years and some of them went to the same school as I, so that was kind of a relief.
When the months went on some of the more popular kids in the class knew I was shy and picked me for bullying, you know the familliar things like hiding your rugsack, "kick me" notes on the back and more.
Which leaded that i did'nt wanted to go to school anymore and my grades suffered alot from this, so i failed my first year and had to do it all over again, but this time I went to another school.
The school where I went to was located in a smaller village and school was smaller too, which was way better for me... the people were alot nicer here and teachers guided the kids better here than on the other school. The following years were really good, I got my diploma after 4 years without doing any of those years again.
After that I decided I wanted to do something with computers so I went to study (college?) I was 17 when i started and im doing this study and 1 year to go.
But my biggest problem is still that im very shy and don't connect with people that easily and I also never go out to a club or meet friends in any particular way, and im kinda scared to ask them out because they might refuse or make up an excuse to not go out with me.
Im really in a position now where I only communicate with my father (who also is alone, 7 years now) and are very isolated from the outside.
I spend most of my time home and behind my computer, wasting my time on the internet or play games. I'm really clueless and i don't want to keep living like this.
The post is kinda big so I will seperate it a bit over time ( next time im going to talk/vent about my relationships... not that I ever had one... lol)
By the way this forum is great for relieving your feelings
Thanks for any advice
(P.S. I might have made some errors since it's not my native language)