need advice on breakup

[badaboom]

so my gf that i was dating for about 4 years broke up with me, in the end of our relationship she was acting like a total ***** towards me, she dumped me by saying "shes not happy with her life and that she takes her anger out on me and i dont deserve that" i asked her why she doesnt tell me whats going on in her life and shes afraid i will make fun of her ? our relationship has gone through everything in the last 4 years, she has cheated but i have forgave her, but she keeps on giving me this bullshit over and over again, i know eventually she will come crawling back, she says she loves me and wants to marry me, but this is making me extremely depressed and sad, what do i do?

 

[Lonesome Crow]

ARE YOU SERIOUS???
When its all toxic and twisted like
That...
Mmmm...had she stalk you yet?
Or broke into your house...yet? LoL

It finally had go come to this for me...
Cuz shes nucken futz.
But i had a lot of time,emotions and
Whatvere the fresia else i had invested.

NOW THAT YOU LEARNED TO HATE ME,
YOURE FINALLY SET FREE...
My head spins as gods wind
Carries you away from me.
Looks like you got a wave of me.
You got away from me this time for good.
As i breath slowly

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In other words
I turned into a major dick head to her.
I said hurtful things to her that would
Make her hate me forever.
She blames me and tells all our
Frirnds i am i dick anyways...
Ill play the fucken devils advocate.
Because it got bad...she got really bad.
And whatever the fresia her lies other
Poeple wants to believe....

In any case...the tie had been cutted.
Im such an abusive prick..she tells the world.
So be it...i dont have to deal with her anymore.
Hate me some more....

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It was a 12 yrs relationship.
The last 4 was A fucken marry go round.
It got progressively worst as she got progressivly
worst.

 

[whispers]

To tell you the truth, i dont think she loves you. I myself have become verbaly abusive to men i no longer loved, but i didnt know at the time. I was miserable, because i was not with the right person.
I beleive if she cheated, love is not very strong.
Maybe she stays because you provide some kind of stability or security, but its not for love. Relationships like yours usualy only get worse.
For your own good you should move on. Find someone who loves you and treats you with respect, everyone deserves to live a happy life.

 

[Lonely in BC]

What do you do? RUN! You're acting like a doormat- I can say this because I've been there.

 

[Lonesome Crow]

Im not a hateful person.
I basically had to do the samething with
My exwf after we try to reconcile.
I had nevered told her to fresia off or
Curse at her. But she was going round
And round. My mental and emotions
Was all over the place. I couldn't
Carry on like that anymore.
I care for as a person and i know she
Has feelings for me and love me
At some level as a human being.
We just couldnt do that anymore.
Our lives were going nowhere.
But shes kindda like me. So we
Just had a week of hateful honeysuckle
Going back and forth..
Im mature enough to figure it out.
She cant be telling me she loves me
Because she told me that after we divoirced.
It messed me up.
So she started being a hateful ***** to me too.
Just so we can move on or break tbe fresia up.

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I can hear her crying so i know she dosnt
hate me...truely hate me.
We just needed to go saperate ways.

I was so angery at her... I started
Dating women because i felt
So much hate for her...
But never the less...
I was able to move on with my life
Instead of sitting home feeling
Broken hearted and miserable.
I married her for reasons....
She knew me at some level.

 

[badaboom]

Thanks for your advice guys!