New member - looking for positivity!

[ordinaryDude]

Hi,
I searched for "Positivity Forum" in google and that brought me here. So does this forum really helps people becoming more positive?

I don't see any great talent in me. Very poor at sports, only good in chess but not to the level I want. Not that great at studies, yeah I'm doing Masters at a top university but I'm very ordinary there and often overwhelmed by the brilliance and work ethic of others around me. In fact, my confidence is so low I spent one semester in depression without studying. These days, I worry on whether I'd actually be able to finish my masters.

I'm very short, just 5'3", so girls never really showed interest in me. Because they never showed any interest I never approached any girl that caught my eye in fear of rejection. Hence, even at the age of 27, I never dated a girl.

Apart from the fact I have to live to help my terminally ill dad to survive these last few years, I can't see any objective to live. I can't see myself being an influential human being for the future, hence I often think "if only I did not owe to my parents and to my creator, then I could end this mediocre journey!".

All these negative emotions made me depressed, depression makes me either sleep for hours or watch porn to have some fun. I can see that porn is affecting my soul and my character these days.

So, do you guys think I can come out of this deep sea negative thoughts? Is this forum an appropriate one for that?

Thanks for reading my long post.

 

[nicccs3]

It might help to know that you are not alone in your thoughts. It's helped me already (I'm new too) to know that others understand my feelings and thoughts.

There are people on here who will listen and give advice.
We all have our own experiences and fair share of loneliness and depression but there is a way out-it might be uncomfortable and take a while but there are people who have made it...you can too.

You got in to a top university and doing your masters-that means you have the intelligence. The people around you are quite possibly thinking the same thing about your work.

Keep going. Don't give up. You are a worthy person. You can get through this.

 

[jaguarundi]

Hello and welcome to the forum. Will this site help you be more positive? That's up to you as well as ALL. Have a look around, make the most of it. Hope you find what you are looking for.

 

[Edward W]

Hi and welcome to the site, it has been a positive experience for me, so hopefully it can be for you!

 

[Badjedidude]

Welcome to the site.

 

[9006]

Welcome here.

 

[Dexter]

Hello and welcome to the forum.
I hope you will find some inspiration for being more positive

 

[Nicolelt]

Hey there! Welcome. This site has helped/is helping with my issues. I hope it helps you too. There are some wise people on here.

 

[TheRealCallie]

So, do you guys think I can come out of this deep sea negative thoughts? Is this forum an appropriate one for that?

Of course you can. As long as you want to and try, you will eventually succeed. I find that this forum is good for many things. People here are understanding and helpful. I hope you find what you need and good luck escaping the negativity.

 

[ladyforsaken]

Hello there, welcome to the forum.

 

[GirlwithCuriousHair]

Hey there... I'm really sorry to hear about your dad, I had the same thing with my dad. It's horrible but you're doing a genuinely great thing helping him through that, and I'm sure he's so pleased you're around. Plus I have to say and be frank, people who are doing masters degrees at good universities are NOT mediocre!!

So just going off that first post there I can see you're strong, caring and clever... that's definitely not a bad mix!!

Best wishes to you and your father. I hope you find what you're after

 

[ordinaryDude]

Thanks to all . I must say, most of you have delightfully beautiful avatars.

 

[Tulip23]

Hi and welcome Hope you find what your looking for here

 

[WallflowerGirl83]

Hello and Welcome to the Forum! =)