Sanal said:
Lonesome Crow said:
E-mail Zak...and talk to him about what he's allow to do as a 24 year old male...
He will give you a different perspective of your should or shouldn't ought to have or do...
It'll open up your mind and perhapse open doors for you.
You Rocket of poopoo. When was the last time you emailed me? Or When did you ever email me? lol and I' not 24 I'm 23<-----
the last time I got on MSN
Beside you're too bussy with your GF...
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Just keep going out and don't trip.
If you stay in bed you're going to get more depress and more dysfunctional. Dig a deeper hole.
I've been there...I isolate myself for almost a year.
There's not a silver bullet that's going to solve all your problems..but you gotta get out of the rut becuase
it's a visouse cycle.
Yes...my ex-gf left my ass just becuase I got laid off. Then I got totally dysfunctional and didn't renew
my driving licence feeling sorry for myself....She wrecked our lives with her drinking and gambling problems,
but I dug myself a fucken hole. For crying out loud..it only took me 15 mins to fill out a form.
But getting dysfunctional every little task seems imposible or pointless.
I still attend my support groups today even though i havn't drank in a long time...Heck there's chicks in there.
As a matter of fact one asked me for my phone # tonight. Healthier women..becuase I'm healther.
I didn't have to go to her. She came to me....chit chat or whatever.
Why of course...A crazy blonde, deep blue eyes with a perfect body...I still attract those type of women
I have a radar for them and they have a radar from me...lmao
That's another story..I'll explain that later...lol
It makes her bloode boil with adraline and she runs a fever just to be around me..let me put it that way...
I'm forbidden love...lmao
I still do alot of those actvities alone becuase I have better selfesteem and don't trip out.
It all started from the day Samba convience me to go freaken outside...
I had to go outside...get daylight and learn how to be around people again.
Then I started inneracting with people more and more...not just looking to get laid.
I work on myself. It didn't happened over night. The more i work on myself ..I more well i got.
yeah...adjusting or changing my body clock was a son of a gun.
I can't compair myself to anyone else.
What I think I should have or where I should be...that's what drives me fucken crazy.
I can't think like that anymore...I'm where I'm at, becuase i chose to be where I am at.
Beating up on myself didn't get me anywhere..
Blaming my ex-gf dosn't get me anywhere either.
My goal was to get another automoblie , save money return to school to complete my degree.
I went back to work but laid off again due to the ecomony...So i wasn't able to purhase a new automoblie
to make it eaier on me or for me to go in style...
My goal still remains the same...complete my degree.
I recently pruchased a used truck...it's gets me to piont A to piont B and it's still cool...not what I wanted,
but it serve my needs. I'm well enough to focus better. I'm eduating myself today even though I'm not attending
school. I read alot today, I'm grateful I can do this.
If I get into a relationship on my way there...that's cool...if not that's cool too.
I've been in relationships all my life...so there's a part of me that's not totally curious or feels like I'm missing anything.
I want a relationship with a woman of course...but i don't need one.
I feel like I am making progress in this department too or I'm going through a different stage now..with women.
The last 4-5 women i asked out withing the past 4-5 months ...I got rejeted, stood up or it didn't work out for whatever
reasons...Now this woman is asking me for my number or she wants to get to know me. Life changes becuase I changed.
And I'm not going to settle for less either...A woman needs to love me for who I am and not just beuase I have money
coming in...I've been there and don't that. Slave to the fucken grinde to get her whatever the fresia she wanted but it wasn't
never good enough..
Every women I've ever been with had never saved my life...they fresia it up more...lmao
Oki doki..the sugar coasted version...I have more fucken responsiblities..