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Blue_Eyed_Symphony
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I guess my headline says it all? Not quite. I am newly single. I broke up with him. Whyl because he judges my life. I'm sorry that I'm not good enough for you but I will NOT apologize for the life I lived BEFORE I met you. I come from a pretty, how should I say it, controversal life. I wasn't brought up in the loving, privileged, prestigious family that he was. I haven't done bad things or anything but I've had some experiences that some wouldn't consider fit for a kid. But hey, I was dealt a bad hand of cards, all I could do was play the cards that given to me the best way I knew how at the time. Anyway, he is always trying to change me. He wants me to turn my back on what I love. In example, I write a lot about my experiences. I look at it like this : What life throws at you is there. You can't wish it away. Trust me, I tried. you take each experience and you make a choice of what you want to do with it. Rather you make the right decision or wrong. I don't want to forget my experiences because it is what made me today, who I am. It sucked, I fell to my knees countless times, but it's just more to learn from and makes you stronger. He pretty much wanted me to lose contact with my brother who is in a mental institute receiving help. He is ashamed of me having a brother who is mentally ill. Well, I couldn't accept him looking down on me and I certainly will not forget my brother. I applaud him for getting help and I am not ashamed of it. If he can't accept who I am, then I am not who is meant for him. So, no tears.