randomdude
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Male with wide hips, fit legs and more than narrow muscular shoulders isn't a man it's a disgrace of all males on this planet this is the main reason i hate myself. I ruined my body shape by sitting on a chair gaming 10 hours daily while my body grew the most. It's not that i didn't want to go out more but every friend i had than deserted me because cool kids were against me, i was all alone gaming myself out of that problem. As soon as i hit 14 people started proving their dominance over me because i couldn't hide my fears and anxiety breaks me, so many times i had to fight and luckily adrenaline guided me and every single time i stand my ground and kick attackers ass except one time, but every time i fought i get traumatized and in next months i can't feel emotions or any other feelings. As much as i got bullied that much i got interested in mma and my admiration for Spartans and Gladiators grew. At 17 birthday i stopped going to high school because i lost interests and went to gym in order to forge my new body and follow my dream of becoming a man powerful beyond measures physically and mentally. Little before i joined gym i started visiting therapists so i can work on my mental part. Every single day i barely go to gym and i hope for changes but i am still a sad *removed* and a *removed* it takes one random guy to look at me and i feel bad. I am afraid to confront anyone about anything, how will i defend my sister and my family? Only thing that keeps me alive is that i don't want my family suffering over my suicide and i don't want bullies to succeed but i also can't move on with my body and anxiety level i am sick of it. I've made some good friends that i am never anxious or bad being with but that's not enough to keep me happy. For almost 2 years of gym time i never made any friend in gym. Only thing that keeps me training is i don't want to break my promise to myself even though results are minimal. Ectomorph upper body and legs and endomorph wide hips and stomach, thunderbolt hit me please!