67 days ago i didn't eat for 15 days.
i think it felt like happiness.
i don't feel anything normally. she's dying and i don't even go see her.
ever.
when i do go see her i feel like i am supposed to feel. but i don't.
at best/worst i feel fear. that's it. but it's 8 days and about 3 hours since i felt that. and i know i can't offer comfort.
i wish something touched me.
******* FAULURE.
if i could be obliterated and dead i'd go for it in a second. but the thought of the few people i don't want to hurt having to take care of my ******* corpse makes me rethink it.
lol. ^quite dramatic, am i not. effing lowlife.
i think it felt like happiness.
i don't feel anything normally. she's dying and i don't even go see her.
ever.
when i do go see her i feel like i am supposed to feel. but i don't.
at best/worst i feel fear. that's it. but it's 8 days and about 3 hours since i felt that. and i know i can't offer comfort.
i wish something touched me.
******* FAULURE.
if i could be obliterated and dead i'd go for it in a second. but the thought of the few people i don't want to hurt having to take care of my ******* corpse makes me rethink it.
lol. ^quite dramatic, am i not. effing lowlife.