Rocketdock1001
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today i passed a test that made me able to go to a gymasion, i am ( was ) incredibly happy. I found that speciel someone everyone has. and i spent some time with her. Since i go on a boarding school and having to meet at 8am i had to spend the night at home. Finding out she has been looking for me and was quite angry at the meantime, she thinks noone is telling her anything ( and anything is anything not my love thats for sure ) and when it turned evening and i wanted to talk to her but couldent since, she was in a conversation at the time. I observed the people playing billiard instead. Often she dosent want to talk or she thinks i have to make some move. Like her friend who is a ( mean curse words here ). And i feel im being used here. She wont talk to me only if i break the ice and try to make a conversation with her. She cares that im gone but she wont talk to me and BE WITH me not chit chat and then going away. This is not going to work. And from i wont show anymore interest. I put energy in her and i f****** demand something in return. Mabey somthing will happen when goto gym. When is it my turn to be loved. When i give so much energy and love to the people i care and love. I was so happy today. Now she made day like any other. A gram of happy and a ton of sadness disguised as a smile. Sometimes i hate life and love. And my teacher ( but thats not relevant)